Hi ,
I know exactly what you’re going through. I was previously in a 2 year long relationship with a narcissist myself.
When you’re in the relationship and you love that person, it feels like it’s almost impossible to get out of the relationship , because you’re feelings take control over your mind.
The only way I got out of the relationship was because I told my brother about how the person I was with (the narcissist) was physically abusing me. This then caused alarm for my brother , who then helped me to get out of the relationship. He went and confronted the person at their house, and made his parents aware that their son was abusive. From there, we were not allowed to see each other , and were forced to block each other’s numbers.
At the time, I was really heart broken, and still loved the person, even though they were physically and emotionally abusing me. But I’m telling you, once you get past the hard part, which is the break up, you will feel so much better. You will finally be free, and not controlled by someone else’s messed up ‘rules.’
Please get out while you can. Being in that relationship nearly killed me. It got to the point where I was being so badly abused emotionally , that I nearly ended my life. That’s what narcissists do. They take over your brain and your life , and all of your decisions.
I hope this has helped in some way.
Please try to stay strong, and focus on finding someone who deserves you, and doesn’t make you feel unworthy of yourself, and manipulated all the time.
