Ok, so I first came here when I needed help with my husband's depression
but here I am a couple of months later and I am so traumatised and
messed up in the head I don't know what to do. I knew he was alcohol
addicted, I knew he was depressed but I d...
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Ok, so I first came here when I needed help with my husband's depression
but here I am a couple of months later and I am so traumatised and
messed up in the head I don't know what to do. I knew he was alcohol
addicted, I knew he was depressed but I didn't know he was popping
prescription medicines or that he has a porn addiction too. During the
course of talking to my husband and hammering him for answers I decided
I would do the one thing I never imagined doing, I snooped. What I have
discovered has left me in absolute ruins. In December last year over the
course of 3 days he searched for and visited 52 kinky websites and
signed up on 13 Kinky Dating sites. When confronted he of course denied
it but I wasn't having any of it. To cut a very long story short I have
discovered he is addicted to porn and has even watched it at home right
under my nose. The nature of the porn has gotten worse and while I
haven't actually viewed any of it judging by what he was searching for I
can only imagine. My heart is shattered, my head severely messed, I
cannot eat, cannot sleep due to nightmares, I have invasive thoughts -
things pop into my head at any time and I'm really struggling to deal
with it all. He has accepted he has a massive problem and wants to get
whatever help he can. He is genuine in this and has begged me to stay
and help him. The trouble is, who is going to help me? There seems to be
so much out there for his addiction but all I can find is sites telling
me how I'm feeling. I already know that! I need help to accept, move on
and heal. I am so lost. I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know who
he is anymore, I'm broken, sad, depressed and have been having crazy
irrational thoughts. Is there any hope?