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This bipolar life

Kazzl
Blue Voices Member
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Are your moods are like an elevator with no control buttons? Mine are.

Ground floor ... I feel normal, content, just quietly getting on with ordinary, everyday life, loving my family and friends. This is as it should be. And maybe there's nothing wrong with me after all. Live.

Going up, top floor. Oh look! There's a shiny thing! I want to sing! Let's go buy stuff! Let's have a big party and invite the world! What could possibly go wrong! Woooooo hoooooooo! Play.

Going up (a different day) top floor. What do you mean you don't agree with me! I'm right! Why don't you think like me? Keep up! How can you be so illogical? I'll f-ing shred you if you don't do what I want! Rage.

Going down, lower ground floor. Flat, listless, can't be bothered. Can still function but it's a drag. Cope

Going down, basement. I'm never getting out of bed again. I'm useless, worthless. Total idiot, how could I ever imagine I could do anything, nothing ever goes right because I'm wrong. I'm a burden to everyone. Hide.

Welcome to my bipolar world. It's always been my world, but it's only recently I've seen it for what it is. About 15 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression during one of my 'basement' times. I had a lot of lower ground floor times too, on and off, and I kept out of the basement (so I thought) with alcohol. Until that took me into the blackest ever basement with only one obvious way out. Having survived doing something very dangerous I realised I had to stop drinking or I really would die.

I never took much notice of the playful times or the anger, that was just me, I was fun sometimes, and sometimes I was a devastating bitch. Ha! Deal with it people!

Well, yes, but in time the elevator started going up and down too quickly and, as I became more aware and more knowledgeable about mental health I realised this wasn't good. Doctor. Diagnosis. Bipolar 2. Lithium.

So, I've started this thread in the hope that other bipolar folks will join me, to share experiences and strategies. In my 'beginners' understanding, we are different from other fellow travellers of the back dog. While we experience depression as many others on this site do, the hypomanic or manic ups and, for some the rapid cycling that can happen, are experiences unto themselves.

I want to learn more, and I want to share with others. I hope my fellow elevators will join me here.
BTW, it's a ground floor day in my head today! Yay!

Love

Kaz

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Velvet, I feel a bit off today too. I think it's the sudden change in weather. My tolerance for the increase is meds has petered out. I hope your workplace gets reported in themedia. I hate corporate greed. Yesterday we played barefoot bowls. It was a hoot. It would be better in the evening but we played in the sun. I may have played once ten years ago. Otherwise I am a novice.

My workplace was taken to court and it was in the media. No ruling yet. If the ruling is in favour of the staff that opens the doors. We wait.

I hate corporate greed too. There is a difference between making a good honest living and being corrupt and so forth.

I've played barefoot bowls. Was a very hot day. Christmas party for work years ago. Definitely fun. Cold beer helped. Hehe.

I hope the meds are helping though? Or is a change in the air?

I had a super comedic and stressful event here today. Will tell the story soon.

Asdff

Barefoot bowls sounds like fun. I am not coping with the cold but the wind is that strong it gives me a headache.

Velvet , super comedic and stressful sounds , like parts of my life. I hope you are ok.

Went outside to hang washing and the door slammed shut in the wind. Deadlock. Left phone inside. Man thing had moved the hidden key and not told me. Food on stove cooking. So I run around the house to frantically ring the doorbell. He is 5000km away and the system is linked to our phones remotely. I can smell the food on the stove starting to burn.

Frantic doorbell rings out of the norm didn't cause any concern. Phone would've been in pocket vibrating like a phone call. ARGH!!!!!!!

I had to get creative fast. I found the long handled parrot beak trimmers. Put them in through the door. I dragged myself half in the doggy door, which isn't big enough to get my hips through. Twisted myself around and used the trimmers as super long pliers to grasp and twist the knob on the deadlock. It OPENED!!!

Win = food was edible.

Kind of feel like a Mcgyver!

Velvet

I am glad your story had a happy ending.

Velvet, snap. I was thinking sounds like Mcgyver. Imagine if you had video for the alarm system!!!

There are currently 7 outdoor cameras and 2 indoor.

If the system was active at the time there would be film of the whole lot.

Glad it wasn't ahhahaha.

Oh I see there was so seriously chilly weather over that side of the country!!! Wow!!!

Yes summer is a few weeks away away and wearing winter woolies , scarfs, gloves and beanies!!

7 outdoor and two indoor, Am I behind the times??

asdff
Community Member
My mother seems to think I’m in a bad mood with her. I only asked when she was taking my Aunty to the train station and coming to see me. Aunty is going on a regional train and Mum lives regional herself. I’m like WTF? I also asked if she could find out when brother and family were free for Christmas. I don’t think that is an unreasonable request. I could message my brother myself, it was just she was seeing him before I was .