Very sad still after lonely funeral
hello (and welcome - I havent seen you here before)....
Lonely? Quite probably.
But I also want to acknowledge the lengths you went to get his friends to find out. That shows a commitment and love and dedication I don't think many would have. And it also happened at a bad time as well. I'm sorry you had to go through all that.
If you feel you have to vent about it here, that is OK as well! You have been through a lot and perhaps did not have a chance to grieve properly with all the things you were otherwise doing. If you want to chat more about it... I'm listening