Had enough

[Cereal]

I looked up what to do when you think everybody hates you this morning. The thing is the answers were from people who just thought it. I moved to a very very small rural town to get cheap housing as a single mum working from home. Always thought I would love the country, have my own place, grow veges etc. also that the communities were so caring and supportive so got straight into doing community work and have copped it all now. 'You are just too much'. yelled at, ignored, not one invite in 4 years here. So I started drinking alone. I hate cooking dinner, I am exhausted from always taking on too much and I am getting old. Really I am a bit of a mess seem to make enemies everywhere I go. I love to talk to people but are soooo lonely and isolated here I cant snap out of my depression now. So what I am saying is I think its true they do hate me. This is probably because I get drunk. often. I think I am being non-confrontational but have always had a way of offending people by being straight. I don't even know who I am anymore.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Cereal,

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