Bipolar and “dissociating” from my life

[Alannah57]

Does anyone else find their mixed episodes start with feelings of dissociation?

E.g with me it’s like the things that made me feel comfortable and engaged and comfortably me don’t do it anymore, and I’m no longer connected to what’s happening around me.

[Alannah57]

It’s not necessarily depression either, but it’s like a non sad vacuum that lives underneath the excited and depressed feelings of mixed episodes.

Just curious if that was common with anyone else with bipolar.