Hi Blueebird,
Thanks for sharing and sorry to hear that it’s been tough
lately.
I can definitely relate with what you are going through. I
too have the same thought processes – its nice outside, I don’t want to miss
out - but my anxiety forces me in and I feel like I’m not living life properly because
of it.
Try to remember to be compassionate with yourself, it’s okay
if you were too anxious today…some days are better than others as you say and
even doing something really small like sitting out in the sun if you have a
place in your house to do that means you can still enjoy some sunshine.
But I do understand how over it you can feel, how sick of the
constant battle with your mind that doesn’t leave you alone – you go out your mind
makes you feel anxious – you stay in you punish yourself for not being
productive….
I wonder if you have tried any mindfulness techniques? –
that really helped me a lot, separating yourself from your thoughts and getting
that distance from your mind and what it’s telling you.
Just take each day as it comes and know you are doing your
best. We all are.
If its some comfort, this doesn’t have to go on forever. You
will get better, its just about getting the right help and finding the right
strategies that work for you.
Remember how strong and resilient you have been so far in
your life.
Happy to chat.
Pumps.
