These demons aren't real are they?

[Mr__kipper]

Hi!

Im only thirteen but I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression which makes me a peculiararity to my happiness infested school. But inevitably I have doubted that I have "problems" that all my depression is simply a construct of my imagination that I am just a monster unnable to feel happiness a really selfish cold-hearted monster at that. I feel just quite simply a bad person with a mind that finds it obligatory to mess everything up. Anyway that was my tedious rant

please prove me wrong

Mr.Kip

[bkyth7]

I couldn't find the "tedious" part. Perhaps it would be better if we could help you prove yourself wrong. Even the battles we win leave scars. In choosing that what are you saying? It more probable that you are a "monster" and a "bad person" because you use such terms in reference to yourself. How we think about ourselves often has little or nothing to say about who we really are. Anyway. How can we help? Philip

[geoff]

hello Mr. Kipper, thanks for posting your comment, and you seem to be quite an intelligent young man, but depression certainly isn't a 'construct of your imagination' by any means, because it controls how you feel and it will limit or restrict you by having any happiness, remember you have been diagnosed with depression, and with depression there is no joy.
You can't question what a doctor has been able to diagnose, sure we will always think our problems will be something else, but to self diagnose and assume it's another problem is not how you will be able to get help, because it's called being in denial and the longer you keep believing this denial the longer it will be for you to accept that you need help.
Depression is certainly a monster and with this can I ask you is there any happiness or does it block everything that you once loved to do, and if you say yes, then you have depression, which needs to be treated by your doctor and then with help by a psychologist, please don't be in denial. Geroff.

[Starwolf]

Hi again, Mr.kipper,

Depression plays havoc with our sense of self esteem. Many sufferers see themselves as flawed, undeserving...so I'd say the diagnosis was right. Numb feelings are also another common by-product. One of the things which was a waking up call to me was to realize that a grandmother's death left me totally cold. She was someone I was fond of and truly appreciated...in theory. For years, I was unable to smile or cry, no matter what. This is often the protective coping mechanism of a sensitive mind.

So yeah...your thoughts sound familiar. Depression and anxiety can put those in your mind. They then become your reality, even if it is a false version. So in this regard, depression can be perceived as a construct of the out of whack mind...it is also a medical condition that should be acknowledged and treated as such.

Doing the Anxiety/Depression test in the Facts section at the top left of this page may help confirm the diagnosis. Please keep in mind that we're all different people so the same condition affects us in individual ways...thought the basics are easily recognizable in all of us.

[DV_Arjay]

It all depends on what type of person you are at home, with friends and at school
Are you the athletic type. Smart. Shy. etc...

You arent a Demon. If thats what youre wondering.
Youre a person with emotions and feelings that obviously struggles at coping with something in youre current situation
Either being school work, friends and peer pressure, acceptance, lack of confidence
If you can work out your problem you will overcome this rising issue that most teens and adults experience during their life
Including myself but currently not which is weird for me.
Anxiety btw is all in your head not in an offensive manor
More of an encouragement
If you feel socially awkward or unable to make up conversations because you just dont know the person
Overcome that fear and reach out with small bullet point conversations with your peers
For instance
Give yourself a task
Talk to 20-50 students in a month that arent your immediate friend group
Make small talk that wont weird people out
For instance go up to a student thats a year above you and ask a simple question about a teacher or a subject that you like but make it about them so that they rant or make a joke out of the teacher or whatever
The conversation doesnt have to last long
Can just be a quick pass by joke, say hi and where is room 18 or whatever

Thats how I tackled Anxiety
I dont have it anymore unless something triggers it out of nowhere which always sucks but i overcome it.
Have a good one
Hope this helped a little for you.