The circle of life

Tina93 · ‎26-02-2016

When I was younger I used to be very academic. Not to say that everything came easily but I used to put in alot of effort. Always trying even if I failed. I was always hardworking and tried my best. Im studying something that I really enjoy and am good at. But over the last few years this drive has all but disappeared. I start the new semester with well intentions but I always end up putting off everything and just giving up. Ive come to the point where I know something is wrong but I dont know what to do.

I have a really supportive family but I just cant seem to talk to them about this. We've also been going through some family issues with alot of my immediate family being diagnosed or died of cancer, one of which is terminally ill. It just seems like everything is happening all at once. Something terrible happens, ends and then the cycle begins.

blondguy · ‎26-02-2016

Hi Tina93

Welcome to the BB Forums and thankyou for posting too!

Firstly if I may say...I cant imagine what its like to have an immediate family members being diagnosed/passing away through this awful disease..I am sorry.

Starting your new semester with good intentions is a fine quality/trait Tina. Just a humble thought but if you have a lot on your plate (which it appears you do) you are trying to cope by putting things off and thinking about giving things up..You are not on your own...

* You do have a supportive family and discussing it is difficult...ok.

* You are an intelligent and articulate person Tina....that is for certain.

* Can you call your GP and have a chat? This can be a huge healer for you to vent and then cope...

* A GP's training now enables them to help you with your feelings (compared with a few years ago)

You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. You are still academic Tina...Life has thrown you a some hurdles to jump over...

If you wish to Tina...please let us know how you are going. Or for anything..We are here for you...

Be 'Kind' to Yourself Tina93

Paul

Tina93 · ‎26-02-2016

I find it difficult to talk to my family about this, especially due to our current circumstances. I just dont want to heap my burdens onto them. I know Im not a burden too them, I just end up feeling guilty. Sometimes its easier to open up to a stranger. Thankyou for your advice Ill contact my GP and make an apointment.

blondguy · ‎26-02-2016

Hi Tina,

Of course it would be hard to discuss to your family...There is some serious health issues in your family right now....The benefit of seeing your GP is there is less 'Stigma' seeing your GP for a chat than waiting for ages to book in and see anyone else.

You are going through a lot right now. We are here if you wish to talk about anything...okay? I feel for what you and your family are going through right now Tina. It would be difficult/dreadful to cope with...for anyone...

This site is very very secure and you are more than welcome to respond if you wish..

I do hope there is some peace for you and your family soon Tina

Thankyou for having the courage to post

Paul

geoff · ‎27-02-2016

dear Tina, hello and it's nice to be able to talk with you.
Can I put a question to you, I'm sure that your family know of how well you have advanced yourself, and I'm sure that you have excelled yourself, but perhaps they could be noticing that there is something wrong with you at the moment, and realising that all these issues are affecting you and maybe want to speak with you.
Your family maybe a bit frightened on how they approach you and then bring up any issue, I'm not sure whether this is the situation or not.
Procrastination can always be a problem, which seems to be happening now with you, unlike your determination you once had before, but by losing immediate family can quite easily do this, but as you say 'the cycle begins'.
I do agree that it is easier to talk to a stranger because you can talk to them without getting them upset, which could happen if you do talk to family members, and it may put another perspective on the situation which is always good and something to think about, and by saying this it could also help if you do want to talk to your family. Geoff. x

Tina93 · ‎27-02-2016

Im not going to lie my procrastination is increasing, I sometimes try to justify things in my head. Things that I dont really want to do, things that I know will have some sort of affect on me. So I just put them off. With my family part of the problem is that I dont want to disappoint them. Everything seems to come easily for my younger brother. I know I shoulnt compare, everyone goes through things differently but lately I just cant seem to stop thinking about it.

blondguy · ‎28-02-2016

Hi Tina

Paul here...Just thought Id pop back in and see how you are going if thats okay. Everyone compares..its human nature Tina...Your brother is fortunate by being able to but I hope that you have some 'relief' by having a yak to your GP...

Here for you Tina

Paul

Tina93 · ‎28-02-2016

Im going to see if I can book an appointment with my doctor for friday. I just know what to say. Do I bring up everything Im feeling and anxieties? Any external factors that may have an impact on my life or all of the above. I just know were to start.

Immum · ‎05-03-2016

Hi Tina

Thanks for your sharing. I feel for you.

You are a smart person with a lot of potential. Please share with your family They will support you in getting the help you need. You have things you need to work through but you can find solutions. There are counsellors at school and other organisaions you can access.

Love S

blondguy · ‎06-03-2016

Good Morning Tina

I'm mum is spot on here..thankyou I'm mum

Im sorry that I didnt post you back before your visit with your doc. I do hope it went okay for you.

In a nutshell...with any doctor..after a few visits you will feel more comfortable...It is a pain Tina but it will get easier....especially with the effort you are putting in.

It would be great to hear how you went...

Kind Thoughts

Paul