Hey just keep swimming,
Welcome to the forum!
I'm so sorry to hear that you've endured such cruelty from men. Having a long-term autoimmune disease is rough. If you don't mind me asking, do you live with your family? Also, do you have a few supportive people in your life, whether family or friends, or even a neighbour? Emotional support is incredibly important, and you deserve this.
Have you had counselling sessions since the rape and mistreatment? It's important to be able to deal with the harsh emotional content of these incidents (even though it's hard and unpleasant), as otherwise it will be nearly impossible to start healing from these past events. Leaving your partner after he cheated on you was the best thing you could do for yourself. I know a few people who stay with partners after cheating, and the situation rarely improves or resolve itself.
Do you have hobbies you can do while you're bedridden, like read or do craft? There's a unique romance novel you might like that has the line Just Keep Swimming from Finding Nemo in it. It's called It Ends With Us by Colleen Hoover. It might not be your style of novel, but I thought I'd mention it 🙂 Maybe read online reviews to find out if you like the storyline.
I hope you can seek support, or already have some supports in place in your life.
It would be great to hear back from you 🙂
Best wishes,
Zeal
