Scheduled Emotional Rollercoaster

Parmigiana · ‎28-11-2016

Hey, so I'm not really new here, but it's taken me quite a while to bring myself to write and try to decide whether this is even worth a post. I've had occasional short bursts of depression and anxiety for while now, but recently they've become much more frequent to the point of predictability.

For the last few weeks, Wednesday to Saturday are a high note, where I can enjoy and feel good about myself, then Saturday arvo/night I lose momentum and give myself a chance to reflect on my constant mistakes, poor social interactions and embarrassments, and drop a low that lasts until Wednesday where I can't find much motivation and find most things, including just having normal conversations a chore.

I wasn't planning on posting anything before, but the regularity of this has started to concern me. And even when I'm all good, things around me have started to feel a lot less real. I find myself forcing reactions to things, that should invoke natural ones.

Idk, maybe I'm just overreacting and exaggerating, but something feels quite wrong.

159357 · ‎28-11-2016

I may not understand correctly but i think this may be due to lack of dopamine or placebo enhanced depression.

Sorry in advance if i completely misunderstood, feel free to talk to me so i can please understand and help.

Zeal · ‎28-11-2016

Hi Parmigiana,

I am glad you have decided to start a thread, as what you have written is certainly worth posting. It's important for you to make an appointment with a doctor (GP), so that they can determine what help you need. The sooner help is sought for mental health conditions such as anxiety and depression, the better. I don't think you're exaggerating - you are explaining how you feel. If you suspect something isn't right, then seeking help is the best way forward. There is a wealth of information on this Beyondblue site that you may find helpful as well, especially in the sections Get support and The facts on the top menu bar.

If you would like to speak to someone understanding, Beyondblue's 24/7 service is available on 1300 22 4636.

You are welcome to post back 🙂

Best wishes,

Zeal

romantic_thi3f · ‎29-11-2016

Hi Parmigana,

Welcome to the forums and thanks for deciding to join us!

I cannot stress enough that there is no overreacting or exaggerating here. If it's affecting you it's worth posting; regardless of how big or small it seems.

You mentioned in your post that you've had bursts of depression and anxiety. Is this something that you're still in touch with a GP about; have you ever seen a counsellor for it?

It sounds like you've managed to identify a pattern within your week and it does sound like it's pretty consistent. I think that journalling can be incredibly helpful in seeing how your moods change. Do you find that what you're doing also changes? Often moods can linger and change with work or study or just general activities; maybe there's things you do mid-week might help lift your mood for example.

I do highly recommend you having a chat with someone about this; whether that's your GP or ringing BeyondBlue (as Zeal as mentioned).

Parmigiana · ‎30-11-2016

Thanks for the replies and advice everyone! I'm feeling a lot better now than I was then, and although that does still fit with my schedule, I'm feeling quite optimistic. I haven't seen a councellor or GP, but have found a few friends who I can talk about some of it to. Just a quick question, if I were to feel that it would be helpful to see a GP, how would I go about organising that? I don't really want my parents to know because whenever they try to help me out, I end up feeling worse. It would cost something I imagine, which wouldn't be an issue, but would I need to organise my own Medicare card?

thanks again

romantic_thi3f · ‎09-12-2016

Hi Parmigiana,

Sorry about the late reply!

I'm not sure if your question has been asked yet but just in case it hasn't -

There are a few different ways to go about getting help -

1) If you are studying with school or uni often they have school counsellors. This is free and doesn't need your medicare card.

2) Headspace can also be a great way to go but they are for ages 12-25.

3) If you want to look at getting your own Medicare card the best way is to look at getting a copy or transfer - you need your parents signature if you are under 15 but you also need a bank account so you can provide the details. Some medical clinics can also bulk-bill which means it won't cost a thing.

The website is here - (then just click on the enrol tab to find the document) - https://www.humanservices.gov.au/customer/services/medicare/medicare-card

4) Tell your parents. I know you said you end up feeling worse, but it's only because they care about you. You wouldn't necessarily have to tell them that you wanted to see a psychologist; you could just say that you wanted to go to appointments on your own now or wanted to talk about personal things.