scared of yet to come

reeg01
Community Member

i'm 16 and my boyfriend and i have been dating for a little over 3 months now, i love him so much but i'm just so scared that i'll lose him that is becomes hard to think about anything else. We fight often and it scares me so much, i want to be with him but i'm sick of crying and being sad.

scared and sad

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Zeal
Community Member

Hey, welcome to the forum!

Being deeply in love with your boyfriend after only a short while is beautiful. This intense anxiety over losing him must be emotionally exhausting. Has it been like this from the very start? If you don't mind, could you please explain more about the fights and conflict between you two. I'd also like to understand more about this fear.
If any of the fear is due to your boyfriend's words or actions, it's important to talk about this with him.
Being able to talk about your concerns and anxiety with a parent or trustworthy friend is a good idea, as bottling this up is going to be tough on you.

It's important that you take care of yourself. Talking to your school counsellor is a good idea, especially as counselling sessions should be free for students.

It would be great to hear back from you 🙂

Best wishes,

Zeal

reeg01
Community Member

we have stupid fights and he says things he doesn't mean, and so do i but we both get hurt so easily sometimes and don't think about how it makes the the other one of us feel.

we are working on our fighting, but he lives a while away from me and we normally only see each other once a week, it's hard but i want to be with him!

james1
Community Champion
Community Champion

Hey reeg,

In a relationship, it can be very hard because you're two different people trying to share experiences together and no matter how close you are, there will always be differences. But really, that's what makes relationships so wonderful - not only finding out your shared interests, but where you differ as well.

Without knowing what you fight about, it's hard for us to really comment but it sounds like frustrations come up between the two of you.

When these frustrations come up, it's important to remember that the other person sees things differently to you. So when bringing them up - and it's important to communicate - we need to make sure we don't communicate in a way that sounds like a personal attack. Talking about your feelings, rather than what the other person should've done, will let them understand what their actions make you feel. And if they truly care, they'll want to know what they should've done instead and ask.

Just the same - when we feel like we are being attacked, it's important to remember that it often comes from a place of hurt. So it is good to try and understand why they are saying what they are saying.

Ultimately, we all have boundaries and learning what each others' boundaries are, and whether we can tolerate them, is all part of the early relationship stages. And if you are both talking to each other about this, then it will help you guys work on the fighting and make things a little bit easier 🙂

James

Jessicatherese94
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi Reeg01,

Oh the joys of being in love! It's a pretty amazing feeling. Do you have a parent or close adult friend that can offer some insight? I don't know the full extent of your relationship, but one thing I have learned about love is that it's not supposed to hurt. Maybe if you confided in a close family member and they could monitor the relationship and how you're feeling, if you can have someone watching out for you that would be a great idea I think. Have you communicated your feelings to your boyfriend about your fear of losing him? Communication is so important in a relationship, and maybe he could reassure you that you don't have to worry about losing him. It's so important to be in the present moment when we have interactions with people. The reality is that we can't control the future or what may or may not happen, we simply just have to 'be' in the present moment and do the best we can in the present. Even if you do eventually break up with this person you will be okay, you will recover and you will love again. Try to be in the present and enjoy what you have now. Please let me know how everything goes.

Jess X

hi everyone

so we are still fighting quite a lot and if scares me cause i think he wants to leave me, our relationship is like a scary rollercoaster. although it becomes overwhelming, i'm not giving up hope. because when were together i'm the happiest girl alive

often we fight about hurt, he holds on to his hurt quite strongly and i never know how to deal with things like this. it can become trapping at times. not knowing what to do with myself

please help :(( xo

Hi Reeg, can you explain a bit more about what you mean by "he holds on to his hurt quite strongly"? Remember that someone else's pain isn't always your responsibility, and if he needs to talk to someone else that isn't you (i.e. a trusted adult, psychologist etc) he should. You don't have to know what to do when someone else is in pain all the time. I'm wishing you all the best, and just reminding you that if things become too difficult it's okay to take a break from the relationship for a while. You are still young and you deserve to be happy, and there is someone out there who won't make you feel like you're on a crazy rollercoaster. Sending you love.

thank you again jess

but this hurt that he has is often caused by my actions. i often can't help but feel guilty and confused, i want to be with him. but i want him to see that im not leaving. he can sometimes come off as if hes trying really hard or something

i dont know what in doing..

i love him more than anything