Public face/private pain

[Guest_322]

Hi,

I'm not really sure what to say but the title kind of says it all. Just hurting, that's all. I don't really want to rehash my story- I have mentioned bits and pieces here and there before. Nothing seems to really fill the hole inside me.

Dottie x

[Zeal]

Hey Dottie,

I wish there was something that could take away your pain, or something I could say to help. Anything I can think of to help is what you are already doing or have done. I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and hope the hurt doesn't intensify. Not having uni means you do have more free time to think, as you've said. Spend time with the people who care about you the most.

All the best,

Zeal

[Guest_322]

Thanks Zeal. For some reason, your post got me a bit choked up- I think it was the sincerity and care that got to me.

Be careful what you wish for as they often say (laughs). I should know better by now but the busy semesters- as much as I complain about them- are probably blessings in disguise. Busy is good- it keeps my mind off things- as I sort of crash during the holidays.

Thanks again. I appreciate your friendship and kindness a lot.

Dottie x

[geoff]

dear Dottie, there are no words of comfort that will ease your constant pain, only words of support that we hope you know that we are here.
Being busy is good, but when those quite days appear is when we are at our weakest and most vulnerable. L Geoff. xx

[Guest_322]

Hi Geoff,

Thank you so much to you too. I have always appreciated your support a lot. Yeah, you're right, the pain is constant but some days/periods are harder than others. Quieter days mean there's less to hide behind.

Dottie x

[james1]

Hi dottie, I know the feeling quite well of being not busy enough to be distracted. Just one of those things which...yeah, they suck.

But hey, it's my birthday and a huugge reason why I'm still here for it is you. So a big thank you and hug from me to remind you that you're awesome, and I'll always be here to talk to you.

James

[Guest_322]

Oh James, you're making me cry. Thank you for being here for me.

I'm very touched that you're posting to support me even though it's your birthday. I'm very lucky to have your friendship and compassion in my life.

Happy birthday! I wish you all the happiness in the world (hard as that might be for you right now).

Dottie x

[ahw309]

Hi Dottie,

I'm awful at expressing love and support in words, but I just wanted to say I am here for you too. We all are. I wish I could take away your hurt, but in the meantime, I am thinking of you. Always. Here's a hug for you 🙂

[Guest_322]

Thank you Ahw. I'll gladly accept the hug. I'm very grateful for your support.

I always warmed to you at the Friends Cafe- sensed a quiet, humble intelligence in you (some of my favourite people in my offline life are the quietly intelligent ones).

I'm avoiding my friends tonight. Received a text to go out but I'm in a mope-y mood so just want to lie in bed and play with my phone and laptop ha, ha.

Hope you're doing okay yourself.

Dottie x

[Guest_322]

Hi,

I'm kind of half talking to myself and half talking to you guys on this thread.

I keep asking myself when will this emptiness/sadness subside. It's as though I have this persistent (& annoying) companion who doesn't want to leave my side no matter how many times I've told it to go away. Like a pesky fly.

Right now, I'm trying to keep busy to keep everything at bay. It's not working as well as I would like (or not yet anyway) but hopefully it will in good time.

Ugh...I'm writing such a pointless post. I guess that I figured better in than out.

Stay beautiful everyone.

Dottie x