Not sure how to deal with my mood disorder

[BrigidElizabeth]

Hi, I have never done this before,

i am struggling with the fact that I have a noticble mood disorder. I have a partner and two friends who can only deal with me for so long at a time. I get aggressive outbursts and crazy high outbursts. I don't know what to do. I have been on medication since I was 15 and I'm now 20 and not sure where to go from here. 

[blondguy]

Hi Brigid

Good Morning and welcome to the BB Forums

If I may ask you...Are the outbursts triggered by anything inparticular? or do they come 'out of nowhere'?

Great move to be on meds...when is the last time they were reviewed?

I am sorry for the pain you are going through Brigid. Thankyou for having the courage to post

Kind Thoughts

Paul

[White_Rose]

Dear Brigid

Hello and welcome to Beyond Blue. Has anyone suggested counselling for you? Obviously you see a doctor to have prescribed medication, but is this your GP?

Having these types of out bursts can be quite scary I imagine. What do you do when this happens? Is your medication a mood stabilizer? Sorry to ask all these questions. I don't know much about mood disorders.

You may find it helpful to contact Kids Helpline or Headspace. These are organisation for young people up to age 25. The addresses are www.kidshelpline.come.au Their phone number, available 24/7 is 1800 55 1800.

Headspace contact details are www.headspace.org.au and they also have a 24/7 phone line 1800 650 890

You may find it helpful to talk to one or both of these organisations. Beyond Blue also have web site for young people. It's called The Desk. Contact details, www.the desk.org.au

Mary

[Kellytsesmelis]

Hey brigid. Firstly well done for having the courage to share your experience with a mood disorder. I to suffer from one. It can make it really difficult controlling your words, and may end up hurting someones feelings. I have learned that by giving advice out to others about similar situations really helps you to follow through yourself. I am very easilly irratated, but when i give advice to someone else i feel a lot more calm within myself. We all have the power to work through these issues. What are your hobbies. What are some things you enjoy to do in your free time? Everyone enjoys something and that os often enough to help minimise any bad thoughts or triggers. Everyone says getting some air is really helpful. To my surprise it really is. When i go out on bush walks or drives i instantly feel myself relaxing and feeling free. Though i still struggle with the symptoms they are not as deliberating as compared to when i was younger. Hope this helps for you.

[BrigidElizabeth]

I have no triggers but have had some pretty awful experiences, always being put down and yelled at and now that's all I seem capable of doing 😕 I hate it and when I calm down and realise I hate myself for it! I don't know how to slow down and respond calmly! Which frustrates me and doesn't help at all!

[BrigidElizabeth]

I have spoken to coucellors and all sorts years ago but live in a rural areas where mental health 'isn't a thing' I thought I would try this as a way to vent and let it out. To see a decent councillor would mean travelling an hour one way and I work Monday to Friday. I no longer see a gp either. They all said different things and I don't feel comfortable because they all know my parents which is where a lot of my issues come from. I don't know what other options are there 

[BrigidElizabeth]

That's my biggest issue. I say things and perceive things so differently and don't mean to sound like a total b*ch but I do. I want to be able to calm down but don't know how 😕

[blondguy]

Hi Brigid

No one has the right to put you down or yell at you.....nobody....If that is still happening now can you please call our 24/7 help number...1300 22 4636...and yes they are good people that wont 'patronise' you...okay?

I dont like people that 'preach' to me either Brigid...(from a guy that has suffered from Anxiety and Depression) you have to help yourself by reaching out for help to start with...whether its the 24/7 number above or find another GP to start with...

Please go easy on yourself right now....we are here for you....

Take care champion....I (we) will check my email later if you wish to respond....:-)

Paul

[White_Rose]

I didn't realise you lived in the country without easy access to therapists. I do have another suggestion.Have you heard of Mindspot? This is a free telephone and online service for Australian adults. https://mindspot.org.au/ Complete the online quiz and then someone will phone you to discuss your needs and which service or online course will be best for you.

I think several other people who post here are completing or have completed one of these courses. If none of the courses are suitable for you they will help you find a local service. Have a look at the web page and see what they can do for you.

Regarding GP that know your parents, the GP cannot disclose any information about you to anyone and that definitely includes your parents. If your parents are part of the problem, then I would think it may help if the GP knows them. But really be assured that the GP must not talk about you (or anyone for that matter) without your permission. You may like to query this with your GP.

If you do not see a GP how do you get your prescriptions?  Also where do you work? I don't mean the name or street, just whether it is in a town where you could go for assistance in your lunch hour or after work. If this is not the case then it's even more important for you to talk to the Mind Spot people.

I would love to know how you get on.

Mary

[blondguy]

Hi Brigid

Just thought I'd ask how you are going...I do understand you had a hard time calming down..and fair enough.

Kellytsesmelis....Thanks for the great help...Your words are kind and spoken from the heart.

We are here if you need us Brigid

Paul