No idea what's wrong with me.

[JasonT]

Hello all, 

I'm Jason, and I really don't know what's wrong with me. Some days, I can be on top of the world feeling great. Other times - like right now - I can feel like I'm worthless and not worth a dime. I've seen doctors and psychologists yet none seem to think I'm bi-polar, or even depressive yet I can't help but think otherwise. I don't understand myself and why I'm upset most of the time - I've had issues in the past with my weight and it's still a big issue with my confidence, also I'm balding terribly for someone who's only 23 and that kills me inside. 

I have concerns about my memory and intelligence as well; I often struggle with the basics in life and nothing makes me feel worse than that. Due to my anxiety it's impossible to keep a job as the last one I had it was volunteer work and I basically had a break down with the stress - not exactly a hireable kinda guy. 

I'm sorry if this is too long, I needed the rant and I hope you understand. 

thanks. 

[Neil_1]

Hi there Jason

Welcome to Beyond Blue and "Well done" on coming here, reaching out and posting.

Firstly you've got me incredibly confused - your pic depicts a young man with a plentiful head of hair with no signs of balding!  Bit of a large frown there, but hey, that's not the worst thing in the world.

I'm also not sure about your intelligence factor because I think if someone can string together well versed and worded posts, that to me shows that they've got some inkling of intelligence.  Your post Jason, was a very well set out and easy to read one - oh and by no means was it long nor was it of a rant nature.  You oughta see some of my ones - their loooooonnnnnnngggggg and very ranty in nature. 

Anyway, back to you - what is your home life situation?  Family - friends?  Do you feel possible support mechanisms there for you??

If you had a breakdown through stress within a job, to me that would have been a great time to seek out professional assistance re:  a GP.  Also, I'd be seriously thinking about talking to another GP - definitely not the one you've already been too.  Jason, on this site they have a list of GP's that can be searched for - and hopefully you'll find one or more in your local area.  These GP's are experienced in dealing with mental health issues and will be able to diagnose you and then possibly give you referrals further afield.  I think that might be your next step.  If that sounds ok to you.

Thank you again for posting and I hope that if you're able to, it'd be great to hear back from you.

Kind regards

Neil