New Job Sparking Depression & Anxiety

[Wildheart09]

So my depression has been pretty good for the past couple of months, the best it's been in a long time. I recently quit the job I'd had since I was 14, I'm now 19 and found a new job. It's much more high intensity and a lot more pressure and I feel like I'm drowning. I'm enjoying the job but no matter how hard I try I feel like I'm constantly making mistakes. I've told my manager a thousand times I want to do well at this job and I'm determined to do well and try my hardest. But no matter what I do I can't seem to please.

It's left me unable to sleep and making me feel sick to my stomach with anxiety that I will be fired. I find myself worrying about it constantly. I'm 6 weeks in and am due for my probationary review soon which is only making the anxiety worse knowing I could be left without a job in a matter of days. I'm dreading going back into work this week and am left lying awake at night with the same feeling or worthlessness and loss that my depression brings. This sparking of depression and anxiety in turn isn't helping with my performance at work.

Does anyone have any advice for shaking new job anxieties?

[Neil_1]

Hi there WildHeart,

Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you for coming here and providing your post. Love the name by the way.

Firstly, I say good on you for being able to get out there and score a new job. It sounds like it’s more upscale from what you had before and a key thing I read here is that “you enjoy the job”. That’s crucial.

With regard to the stress and anxiety it’s causing and the upcoming probationary review … I’m not sure if you’ve been receiving feedback already, but I would hope so. My thoughts in regard to work and for any kind of review … are that there should be “no surprises” when receiving formal feedback about your job and how you are going. So if something is not going so well with your performance, it should be bought up well beforehand so that you are then able to have time to fix/change the situation.

When you’ve asked your manager about how you’re wanting to do well, has it been with a positive reply? Has there been any indication that in fact there is a problem? It could be that the mind (the damn strong thing that it is) could well be creating issues for you, that potentially might not even be there.

Would love to hear back from you.

Neil