Lost..i don't know what to do any more...

[Foreverlove22]

I think i may have anxiety and depression i remember the day i first felt this way, i was in year 2 at achool, and i just had these thoughts in my head your not pretty like her all those thing and this was also around the time my uncle had committed suicide and my aunty was a couple weeks later...i over head mum and dad talking about it, they obviously did didn't tell me this is what happened we were so young, so im not sure if this has anything to do with it but every since then i have had ups and downs but have managed but lately its got rough... i just dont wanna feel like this any more... i worry all the time what people think of me and there is always a voice in my head putting me down... im 25 now and just had to get it out...

[james1]

Hi Foreverlove,

Wow it sounds like you've had a really tough time. Often things from our childhood can rear their head later on through our lives if we don't ever learn to deal with them properly.

I'm 25 as well and I currently see a psychologist. I wonder if you have had any help with your thoughts whether a GP/counselling/therapy?

It must be so exhausting to have to deal with the ups and downs, but with the right help, the journey will be a lot more stable. You said there's a voice which keeps putting you down. Is that what you struggle with most at the moment?

Sorry about the questions - sometimes it can be easier for us to help when we have a little bit more information. It is also a way for us to show that we care about you and recognise that you have a story to tell, and if you don't feel comfortable sharing everything at the moment that is okay too. We are just here to support you through what sounds like a very hard time for you.

James

[Foreverlove22]

Thanks i think it might be, i always feel like i can't do anything right, it's never good enough... i can't get motivated to clean my house, i have 3 kids and i feel like im a bad mum because im taking them down into this darkness with me... u miss my old self...

[james1]

Hey you're not a bad mum - you're simply struggling with your own issues at the moment and that can often make it difficult to do what we want to do. Recognising that there's an issue is not only responsible, but it's also the first step to getting back to your "old self", so you've already done really well by coming here to seek help.

I think you might need a bit of support at the moment to help you along.

Perhaps the biggest thing that will help lift a weight off your shoulders is getting a bit of help with your tasks. Do you have any family who can help with small things every now and then like cleaning with you or helping take care of the kids? It can be a lot easier to do these things if we have someone else in the house doing it with us. Even if they're just to sit there and talk to you while you do it. It's a favour, yes - but it's a favour they'll be happy to do.

I also think you need some professional help to talk you through some of these things and find a plan. Can you make a booking with your GP - perhaps a double booking so you have longer - to talk about what's been happening in the last few months?

Hope you can get back to us here.

James

[startingnew]

hi and welcome to the forums

your not a bad mum

im not a mum but i can see your not a bad mother. i ahve experience with bad mothers as i ahve one myself and you dont sound like one

you have acknowledged for 1. you need help 2. your trying to get better 3. your reaching out to help with getting better

i woudl like to know a little bit more about though to understand abit more of your situation if you feel comfortable enough to chat abit more