Life is pain

[NothingPessimist101]

My head hurts all day, and I'm constantly sick. I've been forced to quit year 12 at least for now. My life has been constant misery. I can't go anywhere, and I don't want to go anywhere or do everything. I can't help it, yet people constantly judge me. I'm depressed as hell. Sadness envelops me. I guess that makes me just another average depressed teenager. But who cares and knows enough to help me. No-one.

[blondguy]

Hi NP101

Good on you for posting...it takes serious strength

* No one will judge you here...ever

* We can help you help yourself NP.....no worries at all...

I have had depression for 21 years and may be able to help

Can I ask you why you were 'forced' to quit year 12?.......and if you have seen your GP yet?

Please excuse the questions NP, your answers will let us help you more effectively

The forums are a non judgemental and safe place where you will not be judged in any way

I really hope you can provide us with just a bit more info so we can try to help you properly

you are a champion by posting this thread...Nice1

Paul

[NothingPessimist101]

I know what this website is, that's why I'm on it. The people judging me are my friends and family. If I can even call them that. I can't attend year 12 anymore because I can't focus anymore because of the headaches. I been to three separate doctors and they have no idea so far what it is. Originally they though it was a sickness similar to strep throat or something, but if it was it would have ended months ago. Its lethargic anyhow. Questions are fine.

[blondguy]

Hey NP

Im glad that you know what this website is so early. I didnt know it was judgemental free and safe when I started

Why are you friends and family judging you for having these awful headaches?

What did your doctors say to you NP?

[NothingPessimist101]

My doctors said that they have no idea, gave me a couple things for the headache, after they tested me for stuff. Most of my family thinks that I'm faking it at least partially, and am just lazy. My dad already hated me when he threw me out of his house. I'm living with my mum now. She's good, but I don't want to burden her with my problems, especially if their is nothing she can do. Most of my friends think that I've just left them by choice. I don't talk to them anymore.

[Kazzl]

Hi NP, I want to welcome you to the forum too. I'm sorry you're in so much pain and with no resolution from the doctors. That must be very stressful.

I'm wondering if you are receiving any treatment for the depression? It might be the source of this, or at least contributing to your physical problems. If you haven't already, I suggest talking it through with your doctor and maybe asking for a mental health plan. That enables you to see a psychologist at a subsidised rate for up to 10 visits.

I know you don't want to trouble your mum, but as a mum I can tell you I would always rather know what's going on with my kids than find out later they were suffering and didn't tell me. And I reckon most mums would say the same. Have a think about talking it through with your mum hey?

Don't worry too much about not attending school. You can always pick that up again later, loads of people do. The main thing now is to focus on your health, and get you well enough to pick up your life again. Please do speak with a doctor.

Hope you stay with us here.

Kaz

[NothingPessimist101]

Thanks.

I'm in the process of getting a mental health plan. My mum knows that I'm depressed and sick, so I don't know if that's enough, but it's my best attempt. I know that year 12 can be done again, but I feel like I've lost all my friends, and don't have the ability or patience to try again.

[Kazzl]

Hi NP - friends come and go, especially at your age. The ones worth keeping will stick with you, the others, well, they're replaceable. Your focus needs to be on you and getting well. I'm glad to hear you're starting a mental health plan.

Just a thought - have you looked into Headspace? It's a good mental health organisation for young people. Perhaps a chance to meet others too. Have a look at their website.

We also have a board for young people here, including the Friends Cafe, a place for young people to chat. It might help to talk with others going through tough situations.

Best wishes

Kaz

[NothingPessimist101]

What happens when no friends stick at all. I have had loads of friends in the past, but I feel like I've betrayed them by leaving them and not talking to them anymore, and I don't want to start again because I'm nervous, and it'll probably end badly again and they have their proper friends already, so I'll just be an extra, if they even allow me to be friends in the first place.

I've looked at headspace, and they just advertise other sites, just like you're doing right now! Or give useless advice. This site is way easier to use anyway. If I chat to other young people, they won't have the strength to deal with my problems and I'll just depress them even more! Or I'll give them realistic but depressing advice.

[Kazzl]

Fair enough NP.

So, how about I stop making suggestions and you tell me how you would like us to help you.

And any younger members who have been through similar situations as NP - feel free to join in.

Kaz