Intrusive Thoughts??

[cvask]

I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety and am currently in the process of being diagnosed with OCD and Depression (my therapist and I both agree I suffer from those but still need to talk about it I guess) The point of this is that I always make up scenarios to the point where I have conversations with people who aren't there. I know there are no people there but it's gotten to the point where it's hard to tell what things are reality and what things are in my head. For example I watched a movie about a "crazy" girl and afterwards I repeated "I'm not crazy" in my head. I don't know if I was telling myself I wasn't crazy or if I wanted this other "version" of me (I guess that's what it is) to be crazy??? I'm scared to bring this up with my psychologist because I'm terrified of actually being called crazy and I'm worried she won't believe me for some reason. I think I used to make up these scenarios to distract me from real life and it would just be me having a nice conversation in my head but it's gotten to a point that I can't stop it no matter how hard I try. This is very complicated if more information is necessary I can provide that but I just need help.

[Zeal]

Hi cvask,

Welcome to the forum!

I'm sorry to hear you have severe anxiety. I have had OCD for 10 years (since the age of 13), and had mild depression in my early teens. I can relate to the frustrations of anxiety, although OCD is now no longer classified as an anxiety disorder (though I still think of it in this way).

Definitely tell your therapist about these conversations you have, which are sometimes hard to distinguish from reality. Your therapist would never consider you "crazy", and it's her job to listen and take into account everything you tell her. What you are saying does happen to some people with mental illness, so I do think she will believe you.

Keeping a brief record of symptoms and thoughts in a notebook is a good idea. This way you won't forget to mention something important at your next therapist appointment.

If you'd like to talk more, you can reply back 🙂

Best wishes,

Zeal