I feel like I'm going nowhere with trying to make friends.
Currently, I only have one 'close' friend in which I can 'confide' in, but they are going through a lot right now, which deters me from adding more to that burden. I do have a friend group, but there has been a lot of tensions which is a large source of all my problems and anxieties.
I feel that talking to my parents is not the same as talking to a friend. We have also had some familial concerns which has also placed a burden on their shoulders.
I recently created a K-pop fan art account as a way to open up and find more people with my own interests, but I have now found myself at a dead end. It feels like everyone already knows each other, and every time a new account opens I miss my chance to make an actual connection.
I've tried joining group chats, tried at the start to open up and add to jokes and conversations, but for some reason I never stick anywhere. I guess that is my introvertedness to blame.
I feel like an outsider in my own life, I feel left out, like no one really gets me and I have no one to fall onto when I truly need help.
