I'm in pain

[BlueArt]

Hi,

So I've begun to really struggle again. I thought I had found this burst of motivation but I was wrong. I am in university again (I am trying my third degree because the other two went badly) and I'm just so done with it . I honestly have no idea what I want to do with my life. I don't have goals. I am sick of my friends telling me "you just have to deal with it". They compare it to their negative days but I have severe depression and anxiety. It is not the same. I'm tired and angry. I just found out that my knee has a lot of damage to it that will take intensive physiotherapy to fix. I injured it seven years ago, half of the problems with it could have been identified then if my doctor had done his job. I'm in physical and mental pain with no idea what to do. When I talk to people they just say "well what are your goals? work towards them" but I don't have any!!. I have no idea what I'm doing and just feel like an idiot. I have an assignment due tomorrow and I couldn't care less. I have barely touched it and don't want to. I don't know whether to drop out again but I know my parents will be disappointed if I do.

I am just so stuck with no idea what to do next. I feel like everyone I talk to just belittle's my problems like I should be able to just get over it but no one ever tells me how.

[zguenzl]

Hi BlueArt,

Happy belated birthday 🙂

I'm sorry she screamed at you, but it seemed she wasn't screaming *at* you more *to* you about something else. I don't know if that helps you process this a bit easier or if I'm correct but maybe?

If you don't feel you can speak to someone about the situation, maybe you can arrange to have some alone time, at least once per day if not more. Fully focus on you - exercise, meditate, read, draw, video games, face mask ... whatever makes you feel good.

Do you think that would help?

Hope you have a better day today

Zoe

[Meg7]

Sorry to hear it. I’m in pain too, lots of it, feeling like no one wants to hear about .... Writing out all pain helps a bit, at least you don’t bottle up. I was saying this morning how everything about me hurts, my life, my childhood , people I’ve met. Not everyone has bad intentions however there are some who don’t realise what they do and how their unacceptable behaviour messes up our lives. It’s very hard to relate to people in this world. Life sucks .... nature is beautiful though . Take care x