I feel like I'm losing myself.

[TAHNS]

So, for the past year I have had these waves of sadness, a lot. I've just usually talked about them to my friend but now it's gotten worse, I blame it on being sick a lot to my dad as I can't talk to him about it. (I can't bring myself to) and I am constantly tired, I feel myself changing. I haven't been to school in two weeks and also I just don't feel right. I've cried more than I ever have these past few months, it's just getting harder and harder each day. I want to feel happy again, how do I even tell my dad this if he thinks I'm fine?

[Just Sara]

Dearest Tahns;

How brave you are for joining us on BB forum...welcome!

Please be assured you're not alone. I hear your pain and know the confusion and fear of 'changing' and the emotional roller coaster you speak of.

About your Dad...I'm a parent; nothing in this world could stop me from listening to my child's heartfelt words. No illness or grief or stress. One of the most painful things as a parent is feeling your child can't come to you for help. Young people seem to go on alone, sad and feeling guilty for 'needing' us...we want so much to be needed!

Tahns, it sounds as if your worry about Dad is making your feelings worse. It only takes a few words to let him know you're hurting. Eg..."Dad; I'm really confused inside and need help. Can I talk to you?" or "Dad...I need you" Your Dad will probably take over after that. Please have faith in him and yourself. If you don't feel comfortable doing this, then try and find a school counsellor, aunt/uncle or a Crisis Chat Line for instance. It sounds as if you really need to just 'talk'.

Please let us know how things go or call in again to talk or ask for help.

Kind thoughts...Dizzy

[Fairywings]

Hi there and welcome glad that you have joined us. I'm so sorry ur hurting so much right now. I have to agree with Dizzy here it just takes a few simple words and I am more than sure your dad will just reach out to you and Dizzy is right as a parent and I am a parent myself too we would never turn our kids away so please confide in him. If ur not comfortable in doing so just like dizzy advised you find someone who u can talk to and if that isn't possible then call the BB hotline and speak to one of the online councillors there they are av 24/7 for you. Please do stay in touch with us and it was very nice to speak with you. Venessa

[Stillkickin]

I agree with the above; sometimes it can be near impossible to comprehend that there is a world out there that would help you, I myself am going through a rough patch in life, but the first step is to realize what is going on, to "take a step back" and analyze truth from the false, to realize that there's more than one path to take in life; talking to someone can be extremely difficult at times, but trust me I know from first-hand experience how much better you can feel from talking to someone, it doesn't matter who it is, if that person doesn't understand then talk to another, I'm not saying reach out to whoever is right in front of you, seek help from professionals, school counselors are a great start. 😃

[Narniakid]

Hey TAHNS, welcome to the forums and thank you for your post.

The others have offered some really great advice that I encourage you to take on board. Being able to speak up to your dad is hard, I know from experience, however you could try writing all your thoughts down in a letter to him? If I feel like I would choke up or fall apart when speaking to someone about something, I find it helpful to sit down and write what I would say to them.

I hope you can find the courage to seek some help - we are always here to support you, but having the support from your dad would make a world of difference!

Crystal