I'm scared, really scared. I don't know what's happening with me? When I'm by my self I feel like these things are getting closer, I feel like they're trying to get me. It's like they're constantly surrounding me. I can hear them just laughing at me, waiting. It's like they're purposely trying to scare me? Whenever I walk through my house during the night I have to turn on every light, I've never had to do that since recently, but even with the lights on I still feel them, I can't escape them.
i also panic a lot whether I'm by myself or with a group, I it seems like I'm a huge target and everyone is a bad person, whenever I walk down the street (or even the hallway in my house) it's like I think I'm going to die at any moment, or someone is watching me. I have minor panic attacks over random things, like writing "panic attack" gives me them.
Then there's another thing, one minute I'm happy , 2 seconds later I want to punch someone, I'm having huge mods swings but why? I don't know what's wrong with me. No one knows any of this, not my mum, siblings , friends, no one. I don't even know why I'm telling you. But I'm really tired of being scared, alone, sad, angry. I just want it all to stop. Please, I don't know how much longer till I go insane.
