I don't even know anymore.

[20oney]

I'm 20, a female trades person..

 for a few months I had been feeling pretty down. Like nothing at all could lift me. My life is great, everything is so good in it! But it's like I've had this cloud of emotion above me.

I feel sort of, sad, frustrated angry alone.. Just drained. Emotionally drained. I couldn't shake it.. 

Then last week, I started randomly feeling a bit better. Only in the last couple of days, it's like I've come crashing down again and I don't know why.

I've thought endlessly about what it could be causing it. 

Is it because I've always bottled everything up? No matter how bad things got?

or is it because work is a bit stressful? I don't think that's what it is. 

I guess I've been thinking a lot about the things that I have bottled up.. But it's all in the past. Why would that be bothering me now!? 

I just want to feel better! And not just better for a few day. I just want to feel good again. Full time. 

I just don't know what to do. 

I've never been open to talking about my problems, I've always held all emotion in. It's hard for me to write here. It even harder for me to talk to someone in person. 

I just wish I could feel better.

[Pixie15]

Hi 20oney,

If you are a female trades person you are probably a practical person. I like to think of myself as a practical person but I am afraid I score very low on manual dexterity. I have great respect for people who can make things.

Have you tried taking the 1 minute checklist which can be accessed from the home page of this site. I think it is possible to have periods of melancholia in life without being depressed. But it is a good idea to take the test and depending on your score you might go and see your doctor or try some lifestyle changes which may help you.

Hope you are feeling a bit better again.

Grateful.