My girlfriend and I have been together for more than a year. It's a long distance relationship - she's in melbourne, I'm in sydney. the start was rocky since she was moving away from an abusive homelife. but things soon became very happy. then depression caught up with me and it's been making my life hell.
im a fulltime uni student in my 3rd year, so on top of my mental illness I have the stress of that and many other things. my girlfriend decided at the start of the year that she wanted to move to sydney by june/july, stating that she just can't go on with a LDR, and that she is able to wait until I move to do my postgrad study in Melbourne. she's already left her course and is applying for and job here. it's clearly very stressful for her, and combined with me I think it's hit breaking point for her.
my depressive episodes have slowly been tearing my life apart. it's deeply affected my relationship. I feel like the move is a bad idea. she has friends and and good job and stability over there and I love her but I feel like I'm just not worth it. I haven't been giving her the support or attention she wants. I don't have any close friends here. I'm horribly lonely but I isolate myself. I don't have a job either. I barely scrape by. she distances herself from me which hurts because she's one of just a couple of people I talk to daily. but she overextended herself for me and she's tired from it so she is blunt and snappy with me. she told me she's unhappy because our relationship has "changed" over time. she once told me by accident that she "misses the january" version of me.
Im currently seeing a psych. I'll probably be put on meds soon. I hope that helps.
but I don't know what to do. I just need to talk to others with the same experience. I feel so lost and defeated. thanks for reading.
