hello Taylor, you both love each other so much, so if you move back in with your parents, then this is going to cause major problems between the two of, because it would seem to him that you're disbanding him, in other words running away, I know that's not what it's meant to be doing, but in reality, that's how he may feel.
If you allow him to go to parties, which could lead onto clubs, then there is a chance he will meet someone else so your r/ship will end, and this would cause more trouble than you wanted, so what Hope.for.the.best has said are your parents able to support you financially, that's what I do for my two sons when they need financial help, because I told them to ask me, well they're going to get it eventually.
I wouldn't breakup a r/ship where the two of you love eachother, that's asking for trouble, something you certainly don't want, but now you need to get help for your anxiety/depression, I realise that making an appointment is not going to be easy for you, but perhaps you can ask your b/friend to go with you.
There's a saying 'you let go of the pain by resisting it', in other words, you won't get better without trying, and apologies if this upsets you, but medication and therapy may help you.
If you need to try and start your therapy online or by phone until you get the confidence in yourself, and I wouldn't suggest moving away at the moment, there are many options to consider. Geoff.
