How do i talk to this girl i've been interested in (knowing i have anxiety and SOME elements of depression)

[OneEyedKnight99]

I really like this girl but to be honest I don't think I have the self esteem and courage to do it. Before my anxiety, I suffered low self esteem(which is one of the three potential causes of it)I still suffer from it though a little better. Before, I used to hate how I looked, now if I was asked: How do you feel about your looks? I would respond with "meh" or I wouldn't respond or i would shrug. But I still hate my self for having no talents or skills. My anxiety causes me panic, large amount of distress and these intrusive thoughts(which causes me to panic)These thoughts have ranged from life threating illness(e.g. Brain tumour) to thoughts of insanity or uncontrollable suicide. My social life isn't any better. I mostly stay indoors and play games to prevent being judged by other people. I've been criticised in the past about the type of clothing I wear and how my hair looks greasy in school(I'm actually 14 please don't tell anyone I want to share my experience)In school, I see this girl I like. Others say she looks "meh" but I think she's really nice and sweet. But I can't talk to her because of 3 things: My Low self esteem and anxiety(I mentioned above), she always with her friends and that he in higher classes(Which fuels the low self esteem because I always compare myself to her)I also don't know what she thinks of me. She might think I'm weird or that I'm too ugly or too dumb. And to add insult to injury, she hangs around a really popular(and really stuck up and arrogant)boy. The only thing that keeps me going is that the boy has one of those typical girl preferences(Large breasts, beautiful looks etc)And seeing as this girl isn't the prettiest(in his opinion) I think I might have a chance.

So, what do I do?(Sorry for my awful English)

[JessF]

Hello OneEyedKnight99, with all those anxieties rushing through your mind, there will always be a BUT waiting in the wings telling you reasons why you're terrible or why you shouldn't give things a go. I'd be lying if I said looks didn't matter in this world, but everyone finds different people attractive - just as you find this girl attractive and others don't.  What's most important in being attractive is to feel confident in yourself and who you are.  Yes that's a big thing!  But unlocking that will be the key to so many things, including how well you do in school and how happy you feel in your life as you move into adulthood.  One thing I would start with is challenging yourself about some of the things you think: is it really true that you have NO talents or skills? Does constantly comparing yourself to other people take you any closer to being the person YOU want to be?  I know this isn't an answer to the main question you're asking, but I think you have bigger and more important things to think about first, and I'm not sure whether the feelings you have for this girl are about her, or more about making yourself feel better when judged against the standards set for you by others.

[OneEyedKnight99]

Hi JessF, what you said was helpful and kind, thank you. I genuinely like this girl , not because so i can feel better about myself, its because i think she is attractive and she really nice.In fact, i think my friends will judge me MORE because they think she isn't the best looking. But, im still not sure whether i have any talents or not. I spend alot of time in my house and i have recently been making efforts to reduce the amount of time spent in-doors.I've already applied for a mentor to help me with my self confidence and and my social skills, but im not sure that will help the anxiety or the "no talents" thing.