Welcome Blak3. I am really sorry to hear that you are in emotional pain at present.
I would suggest that you have a good look around the BB Website as there are many resources here that will help you to determine whether or not you have depression and/or anxiety. I'd suggest you scroll down from here to the blue section below. Start with the Section under 'The Facts', followed by 'Get Support'.
Its not an easy task to talk about mental illness, and I totally agree with you that its a hard thing to admit to. But until you admit there is a problem, then you cannot access the help you may need in order to successfully recover.
Once you have read the relevant sections I think you will have a better idea of whether you have a depression or anxiety problem. If you decide that you may do - the best place to start is to book an appointment to see your GP. And he/she will advise you from there.
In the meantime, have a good browse through the different secions of the Forums and read some of the threads that you find relevant to yourself. Feel free to post a reply to any of the threads if you feel confident in doing so.
You will find that the people here on the Forums are very helpful, understanding and caring. We all suffer from one form or another (sometimes many) of mental illness. So we do understand what you are going through, and would be very happy to offer support in any way we can.
If you are comfortable in providing further details of your circumstances, you will find that people's advise will be better targeted to your own particular issues. Keep in mind that this is a very safe and secure environment, which is closely moderated. You should have no qualms about posting personal details, as you will remain anonymous at all times.
I hope you will post back with further details.
Kind regards,
Sherie xx
