Hey Ellie,
Sorry to hear you're having a tough time at the moment. it sounds scary and a bit lonely having these emotions and the nausea and not knowing what is going on.
I've felt the panic and fear you describe and it really sucks! Sometimes it feels like an elephant sitting on your chest, other times it feels like you just want to puke!
I've found that sometimes I can diffuse whatever might be going on by welcoming it in. By that I mean being open to the thoughts that enter my mind and then looking at them like a curious kid. I just let them sit there and then name them "That's fear", "That's sadness". I also name the thoughts as well "That thought was about moving and what happens if my stuff doesn't arrive" and so on. The trick for me was being able to observe the thoughts and feelings without letting them affect me. I just let them be for a bit then when I've observed and named and watched, I put them in a "special pouch" I have for things I have processed, but not had to let in.
It took a bit of practice in being able to recognise there was an emotion coming and I could catch it.
You might like to try it. It's no substitute to having a chat with your psychologist or calling the beyond blue help line if you are in an emergency and need to talk to someone, but it can really help.
The other thing I have learned is that with big changes coming up I tend to get anxious and it hides unless I catch it out. I think this might be a bit like you describe with some of your experience and wondering why this time and not last time. My anxiety can hide as some subtle thoughts or feelings or even physical symptoms until I bust it and call it out. Then I realise that I really am quite anxious about something that is coming up. My body told me this time that it's a lot of change etc. Sometimes it's a non-event and I got worked up for very little reason. I've learned to listen to subtle things and also observe the powerful things from a distance.
I hope some of my methods might work for you. At the very least that you feel better really soon.
Take care, try to tune in to what's happening and observe like a curious kid.
Paul
