Dont swim to close, i am drowning.

[Vb]

Im 21 year old male, and i dont know what to do.

im getting help but im just getting worse. Tonight is the third time in a row ive cried myself to sleep, i have no friends my roommate hates me. I live off a couple sandwiches a day, but i guess i dont really need energy if i never leave my room. Ive just started to drink on a regular basis just to numb how i feel.

i moved to the gold coast from Tasmania to get away from all my familys issues and to find a job but who wants to hire someone with no experience or a licence. my room mate hates me because i wont clean or do anything and ive given up trying to find work and she knows it. She has put the fridge, microwave, toaster, plates everything you can think of in her room and i have nothing. I want to leave but i have no where to go, i dont want to live with someone i dont know because ill just be the same there. 

At this point living on the street is looking viable, the lease runs out in 2 months so ill have no choice soon enough. I have no one, i dont tell anyone about how i feel and i know it might help but i already feel like im below everyone i dont want to be looked at like more of a downer. 

Most people have girlfriends to help them through things but not me, only ever been in one relationship and it lasted three days. 

[Jacko777]

Hi Vb,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums mate, I am glad you are talking about this and I think you will get lots of support and advice here. I think with some help you can feel a lot better.

You are not below anyone, many of us can relate to how you are feeling and we are here to listen anytime you want to chat. There is that old saying, "It's not what happens to you that counts, it's how you handle it." So some times our circumstances get a bit out of control, but we develop skills that make us resilient to the challenges. There is no way I could have learnt these skills without professional advice and support, I could never have worked out what was going on in my head. So I hope you will consider calling the BB phone service, they will give you tools to feel better straight away and help to ensure you are on a journey of recovery. You can do this mate, others have, so can you,

Jack

[BenD]

Hi Vb,

Hang in there bud, it will all be okay. We all need support at various stages of our lives and I'm glad that you've reached out. Echoing Jacko's words, I would have never been able to manage some of my life challenges without the help of others (as stubborn and as proud as I am).

No rational human being would think you are a 'downer' for looking after yourself. On the contrary, I would think it would be incredibly foolish not to.

I had trouble with a housemate of mine who would do irrational things like put post it notes on things for me to clean and yell at me over the tiniest details. Eventually I left, but despite all that I can see that she has her own set of issues to deal with and that it really didn't involve me at all. The same is probably true of your housemate. It doesn't justify her actions, but it probably explains them.

Please get in touch with someone at BB, if you don't want to call at least email or use the web chat service (I've used it before, it's great).

Here for ya,

Ben

[geoff]

dear Vb, I would be interested to know what you do during the day, and I mean no harm by saying this, because of your current position, but whether you are doing a uni course, part time work or neither.

I also suggest to book an appointment with Anglicare who can help you with accommodation as well as counselling.

Your local Health Centre may also be able to assist you, or the Real Estate who handles your current lease may have something else for you to rent or co-rent, because 2 months goes very quickly.

Hope that you can get back to us. Geoff.