Does anyone feel the same I do?

[GloomyGirl]

Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in my own body. Like my brain controls me. I feel like my own thoughts are attacking me. I feel like a volcano waiting to erupt. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy and everything is just a blur. Sometimes I get headaches because of how much I think. I hate everything about myself and I think everything is my fault. I'm the one who always gets replaced and I'm never good enough. I feel empty all the time. I've been searching for someone who has the same story I do. Someone who doesn't know why their depressed. Someone who thinks their overreacting and that they shouldn't be feeling this way. But it seems like I'm the only one. The only clueless one. I don’t know what to do because I honestly can’t even control myself anymore. Am I the only one who feels this way?

[Stormgrl101]

Hi gloomygirl,

you are not the only one. 

When I first started feeling depressed during high school I thought why am I feeling like this. I have friends, loving family, food, water, shelter, education...I shouldn't be depressed, there are people much worse off then me. I dreaded going to the doctor because I didn't know what to tell them. I felt guilty for feeling depressed. What I had to learn was that it wasn't my fault. A chemical inbalance in the brain that was passed on through genetics. 

 I struggle with anxiety .feeling trapped in my own mind. Always thinking , worrying, panicking, feeling crazy...

You are not alone girl. Have you talked to your doctor ? 

Hope your day is going okay. 

[dougall]

Hi GloomGirl like Annebear said you are not the only one.  My brain has arguments with itself over silly things, wake up during the night and it is arguing about whether I should go back to sleep or carry on a conversation about what has happened or going to happen.  Reading it I sound crazy, maybe ha ha.  You are on a forum where other people do feel the same as you and can help.  Sometimes they don't answer because they are emotional themselves and find it hard but they are taking notice and wishing you all the help you can get.

[TheSteve]

Hi GG,

Thanks for sharing your story. You are certainly not alone, as Annebear and dougall have said. I do understand that feeling of "being trapped in your own head". It is quite uncomfortable, and a bit scary at times.

At the same time, it is an opportunity. It is an opportunity to overcome, to run through the myriad possible options to treat yourself, to grow, to learn, and so on. Without things going "wrong" in our lives, we would never be presented with the opportunity to grow.

I will add a few suggestions, many of which have helped me and others over the years and still do, today, even in a state of full recovery:

- Go to your GP and get a full physical done. This is a "body stocktake" as I call it, get everything checked. Where there are physical problems, take care of these and eliminate these as potential cause for your emotional pains.

- Ensure you have a good counselor that you see at least weekly. Get these feelings out, don't let them dwell and try to deal with them all by yourself.

- Run a diet stocktake. What do you eat/drink on a daily basis? Does a certain food or drink trigger your moods? Run a diary, make notes of what you eat and how you feel after doing so. Go online and research a brain/body friendly diet, and stick to it.

- Get tested for allergens: both food and environmental. Anything you have a reaction to, eliminate from your diet. If you suffer from seasonal allergies, there are herbs and natural remedies you can take to counter these.

- Eliminate gluten from your diet.

- Exercise

- Learn to breathe properly and mindfully. Practice mindfulness and meditation techniques for relaxation and introspection

Basically, leave no stone unturned. I promise, if you run with these methods you absolutely will find something, or more than one thing, that helps you improve your life. Good luck to you.

Steve

[Guest_10384]

You are most definitely not alone; the best advice I can give you is that it's better to see your doctor sooner rather than later - the doctor will be able to help link you in with services such as counselling, psychologists and psychiatrists.

 If you are nervous or uncomfortable about seeing a doctor, take a family member, or a friend that you can trust - their support will help to make the process easier on you.

 Best of luck!