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Don't know what to do

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Well, I had my appointment with my GP earlier today and yesterday...I was so nervous as I've never had any form of help from a psychologist or GP about this before. My GP prescribed me with a couple of AD's one for during the day and one to help me s... View more

Well, I had my appointment with my GP earlier today and yesterday...I was so nervous as I've never had any form of help from a psychologist or GP about this before. My GP prescribed me with a couple of AD's one for during the day and one to help me sleep. After looking up the one to help me sleep at night, I was quite uncomfortable with taking that one. I have a mental health plan set out for me. Another thing is that I can't receive free consultations with a psychologist because I don't have a health care card. But apparently I'll be only $20-$30 out of pocket under Medicare. I just don't know anymore, I feel terrible even though I've taken the most vital step towards recovery. I'm just so confused and scared about this whole thing.

Comfort eating?

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Sorry for multiple posts lately everyone, I'm just having a really hard time with everything :c I think I might be an emotional eater, and that really scares me. I've always been at the top of the healthy weight range, or just over, and the fact that... View more

Sorry for multiple posts lately everyone, I'm just having a really hard time with everything :c I think I might be an emotional eater, and that really scares me. I've always been at the top of the healthy weight range, or just over, and the fact that I'm still the lightest in my family probably tells you about my genetics and stuff :') I did manage to lose 10kg a couple of years ago, but that took a lot of effort, and in those 2 years, no matter how well I eat, it takes so much exercise to see even the slightest amount of progress So naturally, having noticed I crave sugary things when I'm going through bad periods of depression and anxiety (like right now) really stresses me out. Also after a long day at school I crave soup noodles (weird, I know...). I wouldn't say I'm out of control, but I do worry about my self-control. And it's not that I eat ridiculous amounts, I just do eat things I don't need to. And regret it afterwards. Does anybody have any advice for emotional eating? Am I right in saying that it's alright to have things like watermelon or dark chocolate or fruity tea to try and deal with cravings? Or is that bad as well? Please help. My weight already bothers me so much as it is, I want to know how to stop eating whenever I feel depressed and anxious

Depression and stress badly effecting uni...

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Just feeling so overwhelmed with uni at the moment. Assignments just pile up because I get too stressed to deal with them and put it off...by then its 4 assignments due in the next week or 2 and not enough time to get anything over a pass. Sometimes ... View more

Just feeling so overwhelmed with uni at the moment. Assignments just pile up because I get too stressed to deal with them and put it off...by then its 4 assignments due in the next week or 2 and not enough time to get anything over a pass. Sometimes the uni language is far too complicated (and I'm an Aussie born that has always had an advanced reading level even at 5) and I am expected to have a certain level of skill without that ever been mentioned like a year 12 level of math, an ability to read tables, ability to use word like a pro (trust me getting word to use APA is harder than it sounds!) and general abilities that I never learned while I was younger. Plus my attention span is about 5 mins unless I am really invested like when I am painting or writing. Basically I pay attention to fun brightly coloured stuff but anything else is impossible. I go to a prestigious private uni so I don't want to be kicked out for not being good enough. I am afraid that if I get disability assistance for depression, anxiety or stress the uni will kick me out for not being up to standard. I know I don't belong with the smart kids that don't struggle with basic concepts. My field is psychology so its competitive from the start and you get no where later in your life if you fail at the start. The fact my parents pay for it and I have no debts only makes it worse. I have to prove its worth the money they pay. In my opinion its worse than oweing money. I am an introvert and contact with other poeple is scary so I have no idea how to make friends. I couldn't tell you what a friend was. So aside from a friend I don't want to trouble, I have no one. When stress gets too much I self harm. I don't really have any other way when I am in the moment. I do see a psychologist but its effecting uni badly. I take days off uni when I am too depressed or stressed to handle it. Too much unexplained lateness means I fail. beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

How do i help her!?

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My girlfriend is severely depressed and is in a constant battle with herself to keep from self harming and on occasion committing suicide. She wont talk to me about it or anyone else because she finds it embarrassing to let other people know her pers... View more

My girlfriend is severely depressed and is in a constant battle with herself to keep from self harming and on occasion committing suicide. She wont talk to me about it or anyone else because she finds it embarrassing to let other people know her personal life. We often have periods in our relationship where we don't talk because when we are at school its like we are just friends and not even good friends, just the friends that acknowledge that the other is there. I really don't know how to help her when I'm pretty sure she doesn't want to help herself. She wont see a doctor or even someone she trusts to talk about it. what do i do!!!!????

I don't know if I can keep this up

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I'm sorry. I just need to get this out and this seems like the safest place to do so. Before I start, I am 15 and currently in grade 10. Towards the end of grade 2, my dad divorced my mum. My 'best friend' left me saying she was never my friend in th... View more

I'm sorry. I just need to get this out and this seems like the safest place to do so. Before I start, I am 15 and currently in grade 10. Towards the end of grade 2, my dad divorced my mum. My 'best friend' left me saying she was never my friend in the first place and I started being bullied. After my dad left, I was made to see a psychologist but stopped seeing her not long after. In grade 4, I saw another psychologist with depression and thoughts of suicide. Not long afterwards, I stopped seeing her. About this time I started talking to the school chaplain as well as having several 'father' figures step into my life - so I had someone to talk to. I was told I was 'better'. But the bullying wasn't over. I began to retreat into books. They were my escape. In grade 6, I saw yet another psychologist but stopped not long after. But I never really got better. I kept going downhill and in grade 7 I started seeing another psychologist and saw her throughout the rest of that year, grade 8 and the beginnings of grade 9. Then she moved away and I started seeing another person at the same place. I still see the same person. Throughout most of this - in particular grade 7 - my mum wanted to move back to England with my sister and myself but dad had said no and it had been taken to court. I remember one day we were both pulled out of school and chucked in a cab to go up to court. Now they have agreed on their custody terms and I effectively live out of a suitcase - being at one house for 5 days in a fortnight. I was told I had a dissociative disorder when I started seeing her and I slowly got better. I was fine through most of grade 9 and this year. But I suddenly got worse. I couldn't sleep. I was woken in the middle of the night and it took me at least an hour to fall asleep. If my phone got a notification before I fell asleep I had to check it - and the process restarted. I didn't want to eat and I lost my motivation at school. I coudn't concentrate and my memory was lacking. The wall I had built around myself was starting to crumble and I pushed away those close to me. I was also feeling really down and was - yet again - considering alternatives. Anyway, now I keep having like anxiety attacks, I have a phobia of ants and I had an argument with my mum just this afternoon. No one knows I don't cope. I had cut off my emotions before and couldn't recognise them at all. Also my mum is a recovering alcholic and also suffers from anxiety and depression. I'm so tired.

Fear and sorrow rule my life now

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Hello, it took me a long time to find the courage to post this, I am 18 and in high school in year 12, I have Asperger Syndrome and a family history of depression. Last year in the final weeks of school I came to a realization that I had very low sel... View more

Hello, it took me a long time to find the courage to post this, I am 18 and in high school in year 12, I have Asperger Syndrome and a family history of depression. Last year in the final weeks of school I came to a realization that I had very low self-esteem. I thought I conquered it later but then year 12 began, everything got so much worse but I never really noticed it until it was too late, I did a outer school course which was great in the beginning weeks and I felt so alive like I had a bright future ahead of me. Loneliness happened about 5 months ago, I found as if I had nothing or very little in common with everybody around me they all seemed to ignore me or when they did take notice of me it was mainly intended to mock me for what I find enjoyable or that I am too different. I failed at virtually everything and always repeated my mistakes and it eventually got so bad that I became apathetic towards my course, on my 18th birthday I had to go but I down right refused. I have a hobby which I enjoyed so much but now I find it pointless, two weeks and a half ago is when this all started to get really bad I started to feel apathetic towards everything, I slept so much or never slept at all and stayed up for whole days on end. I began to worry about everything more than I usually did, I didn't really notice it since I always usually felt sad but I became sadder by the day and I began to hate myself. I told people that I would fail, that my accomplishments are meaningless and ignored the advice of others with frequency if any was provided. It has now gotten so bad that I am afraid of doing any work at all in fear of failure, I am getting detentions because of it and I am too anxious about informing my parents. I don't know what to do, I feel so alone in this world , I feel like a total failure and I am afraid to do anything related to school or even my hobby that I loved so much in fear of more failure. The school faculty likes to tell us year 12s about failure and it just hammers it home, my parents tell me I am going to fail year 12, its all I hear just me failing something, I don't even remember the last time I heard anything positive about me. I remember crying myself to sleep earlier this year wishing for a best friend. Fear and sorrow rule my life now, I don't think I can make it like this I will fail year 12 and that is something I fear may drive me down farther.

Ever Felt Worthless?

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Sometimes it's hard to feel as if you belong in a community or if life is worth it. Sometimes I feel as if my parents being divorced if purely my fault that all the issues that occur between me and my family is all me. It's hard knowing you have clin... View more

Sometimes it's hard to feel as if you belong in a community or if life is worth it. Sometimes I feel as if my parents being divorced if purely my fault that all the issues that occur between me and my family is all me. It's hard knowing you have clinical depression and the rest is just your mind screwing with you until you think nothings worth it anymore. Life plays tough you have just gotta push through until the sunshine reaches your dim corner, but what if that lights never coming what if i'm gonna suffer in the dark forever is it worth continuing or giving in to the feeling that fulls you so far down there's no coming back? Whats your thoughts?

Intrusive thoughts when I play football

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Hi, I am desperately looking for some advice. I used to have psychosis. I am better now but ever since I have recovered I have been getting these intrusive thoughts. They are really disturbing. I get them particularly bad when I play soccer and then ... View more

Hi, I am desperately looking for some advice. I used to have psychosis. I am better now but ever since I have recovered I have been getting these intrusive thoughts. They are really disturbing. I get them particularly bad when I play soccer and then I feel so distracted when I am playing the game that I end up playing badly and that just makes it worse. The thoughts are all different. Some are violent, some are racist... my mind just comes up with these phrases that are so offensive and then I am afraid I am going to say them. I don't mean to come up with the thoughts. After soccer I can't sleep until really late at night. I don't know how to stop these thoughts. I think my fear of them makes them worse but I don't know how to stop fearing them either. Please help.. does anyone know how to deal with intrusive thoughts? I don't want to have them anymore and I am so sick of having a problem. Thnaks, Bailey

Am I OCD (relationship OCD, if it really exsists) or is this just me?

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Im 22 and hate living a life full of obsessive/ intrusive thoughts.I dont think I ever suffered from true anxiety untill I hit my mid teens. When I was 14 I began my first relationship with a guy from my school, the relationship was great. Roughly on... View more

Im 22 and hate living a life full of obsessive/ intrusive thoughts.I dont think I ever suffered from true anxiety untill I hit my mid teens. When I was 14 I began my first relationship with a guy from my school, the relationship was great. Roughly one month into the realationship I literally woke up one morning with serviere anxiety. I have never felt somthing so terrible, all these thoughts racing through my head about my partner such as 'are you sure you love him?' 'Will we be together forever?' 'Is he right for me?'. These intrusive throughts just appeared out of nowhere and didnt leave, I didnt eat for a week and was serverly depressed. Eventually the anxeity got less but the throughts remained.. I wanted so bad to stay in the relationship but decided to call it off about 1 year and 10 months later because I hated spiking every few months. Anyway, about THREE years later I was looking forward to finally finding a new guy, I was excited to start a new relationship without the anxiety from my first relationship. I met this guy and I liked him straight away but he already had a girlfriend. As time went on I liked him more.. it was a serious serious crush and I wanted him so badly. After about a year and a half from the time we first met, he broke up with his girlfriend and we slept together a couple of days later. I was so happy and then BAM the next day after wanting this guy for so long those intrusive thoughts came back 'are you sure you love him?' over and over, we never even went out, we just did it a couple of times and now I cant even walk to the train station because i have crippiling anxiety about wheher I love him.. what?? 6 months later I met my current bf, we have been toegether for 3 years, his my best friend. From the start of the relationship I had very bad anxiety due to my part experiences and had the same intrusive thoughts.. I learnt to live with it and it did get better.. in the last year ive been pretty good but the anxiety has spiked again. WHY IS THIS HAPPENEING..I love him so much but I have had this doubting thougths with every guy ive been with. Also I might add.. I also have to check my alarm 5 time before bed, that Ive taken my pill 3 times. I have to check my car is locked every time I park it by shutting the car checking every door and boot, checkign the lights are shut. When ive done that I walk away from the car and then need to repeat that prosses 2-3 times before im sure my car is closed before I can leave it.

I don't know what's wrong with me

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Hey all,I'm new here so I'll just stick in a bit of background info before I get to the point. I'm 19 year old male. I have suffered from free-floating anxiety and panic attacks with frequent dissociation (sometimes not occurring during panic attacks... View more

Hey all,I'm new here so I'll just stick in a bit of background info before I get to the point. I'm 19 year old male. I have suffered from free-floating anxiety and panic attacks with frequent dissociation (sometimes not occurring during panic attacks).My condition has gradually worsened since leaving high school and making the transition into university. A few months ago I was admitted into a pysch hospital and I was diagnosed severe panic disorder with agoraphobia. I was there for 7 weeks and got out roughly a month ago. Since then I've been seeing a psychologist and a GP once a fortnight. But since I got out, I've noticed other things about me that seem un-related to panic disorder. I have an extreme fear of being abandoned and whenI' m alone I get really unstable, to the point where I often contemplate suicide. (Admins feel free to edit if inappropriate)I can't be around people for too long as it mentally drains me. I get really stressed and anxious and often leave social gatherings, ect early to avoid freaking out. I also get sudden un-explainable periods where I feel reckless and suicidal for literally no reason at all. During these periods I engage in reckless self-destruction without really knowing why, there's no reason too, I just feel like I want to at the time so I do (does that sound weird). I won't go into specific details as it maybe triggering, but I will say that I don't drink excessively and I've never used illicit substances because the fear of being out of control and panicking is overwhelming. I'm on medication, which has helped significantly, that's why I don't understand? Why do I still compulsively self-destruct without a reason? I'm not a violent person, by the way. Why do I still dissociate for hours?What's wrong with me? My life is fine now, I'm financially stable, I have a support network, I have friends, I'm going back to uni soon. Why do I experience sudden periods of being suicidal? I don't want to die when I'm "normal". Why do I always irrationally think like everyone is going to leave me and I have to frantically cling on them to feel safe? I know it's not a rational thing. Is it a personality thing? And I still over-think every situation until it drives me crazy. I do relaxation, I do CBT, I've got help which has reduced the severity of my condition but it's still there. My head makes me so frustrated, I just want the bad thoughts to stop. beyondblue’s clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

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