Hello Lady and CharRose, a warm welcome to the site, and thanks Grandy for your reply and agree, there are many other posts that may help you, which can give advice on your situation, but that's not to say we won't be answering your comments, that's not how this site works.
When anyone is suffering from depression and anxiety it certainly restricts what you are able to do and even if you are able to overcome these, there is a chance you may have a relapse, as I've had a few times and wonder why, but there's always a reason and each time maybe for another reason, completely different to the last one we have had.
Sometimes we may have friends to help us on one occasion, but next time they may not have the time or we aren't able to contact them, which makes our situation feel as we have to cope all by ourselves, this isn't true, you have people you can still discuss your position with, and be one place is here where we can listen to what you want to say, then give advice from what we've been through ourselves and suggest different ways to help you.
Please can you both get back to us whenever you're available, this would enable us to know a little more of why you feel this way.
Take care.
Geoff.
