tired, sad, tense and anxious

[anon216]

I feel tired, sad, tense and anxious all the time. My body and mind is exhausted and I feel like I’m alone.

My mum knows about this but doesn’t understand it. I know it’s affecting her too, but she acts in a way that makes me believe that I’m a burden on her and the reason she wants me to get better; is for her benefit- to make things easier for her. She threatens to move me from my school to another, and has told me that she thinks I need to go to rehabilitation. It hurts me a lot, because I don’t want to let her down but I know that I am.

I don’t have a lot of friends either. I have trouble opening up to them and I don’t scthally speak to them that much. Additionally, someone who I have feelings for has asked me out which is great, but I’m really scared to see him because again, I feel like I’m going to disappoint him.

This is the first time I’ve reached out since I started feeling this way, which was a couple years ago. I really don’t want to be sad anymore.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi anon,

I’m sorry it has taken a little while for you to receive a reply. It was completely unintentional so please don’t think it’s a reflection on you (because it’s not). Sometimes it happens accidentally. I hope you’re still reading...

You’re sounding very down. I feel you’re very emotionally attuned to your own feelings, which reflects a sensitive nature.

I think you’re doing a great job reaching out here especially if this is your first time reaching out. Well done, I feel that is incredibly courageous 🙂 Reaching out can be very scary...

It must have been (be) hard to keep so many painful feelings inside...I bet it’s exhausting and lonely sometimes. Plus you clearly feel a lot of pressure to not “let others down” like your mum and your crush.

I hear what you’re saying about not wanting to feel sad anymore. So I think writing your first post and reaching out here is a wonderful start. Maybe your next step could be talking to someone in person, such as, a school counsellor?

Or if speaking face-to-face is a little too confronting at this point, how about giving the Kids Helpline a call (please don’t be deterred by the name. They counsel from ages 5 to 25 if I remember correctly).

Otherwise maybe you might like to check out Headspace which provides a whole range of free services for young people. You can easily find them online by typing “Headspace.”

Anyway, I’m very glad that you’re starting to reach out. Plus you’re always most welcome to chat here too of course. You can write whenever you like here as we would love to continue supporting you.

Warm and caring thoughts,

Pepper

[startingnew]

hello Anon and welcome

Pepper has given some really good advice here. do you think perhaps you could speak to your school counsellor or a trusted teacher? KHL and Headspace offers online counselling for young people as well.

Reachout also has quite alot of information for young people and speaking to parents as well so it might be worth having a look at that site as well.

in regards to being asked out, if you have feelings that match his then i would say give it ago.

depression stops us from doing alot of things and also gives us the impression that werent good enough and we are burding others when really all we need is some understanding and guidance to get us back on track again

please keep talking to us here, we're here for you.