Catharsis indeed! 😄
I know you're suffering with depression, but they were some of the best read's I've had in ages. Chuckled my little 'bi' kini's off! Ha!!!
How could one so obviously talented at making me laugh, feel so full of dark? It makes me feel helpless when I like someone whose sadness pervades their world. You see, I don't really understand depression.
I've been there a few times, once landing me in hospital. But it was the kind that made me indifferent and detached from rational thinking. Ergo, planning my death with an extensive action plan. Folder, tabs and all! (Shaking my head)
12 hrs later I fell to pieces riddled with fear and was out in 10 days. The other times I cried from sun up to sun down. Then took happy pills and returned to life. That's it; sum total of my depressive experience. I wish I had more...still helpless.
Anyway, your descriptive rhetoric expressed humourous deflection with expert precision. My observation only, not necessarily right of course. I've seen you in the depths of anger though. Well maybe not depths, more like a pothole.
Addiction to depression? Hmm...it may not be as facetious as it sounds. For me, when I had a bout of despair, I realised still there a week later, it was due to not wanting to face an impending situation. I felt trapped between fear of repercussions and acting on my own behalf. Once the light went on, (talked to Lifeline 2am) depression lifted instantly. Self entrapment? Addiction to inaction?
That's just me though. You've had yrs of it. I try to look at a baseline to assess myself. But then I know me better than anyone. I've just met you.
How can I help you?? Million $ Question... 😕
Sez x
