I am looking to understand and being at peace with the experience of immigration, please, what I would like with this forum discussion is that you share your experiences about immigration, I don't want advice, thank you 🙂
After 11 years in Australia and trying hard to live here happily I found myself with a depression and I am not surprised really. I have tried everything I could do to be integrated and have closed friends or at least have moments of belonging as I am a very social person I love to spend time with people.
I raised a family alone, in a small town, added to that with lots of lock-downs for 2 years, my Australian husband of course is here but I have no emotional support other than him and no help when I am unwell for example, which I have been a bit more recently, I am feeling tired most of the time.
I have also been bullied at my 2 last workplaces and I am afraid now to go back to any new job or develop my little business, my confidence is very low, I am going in freeze mode when it about showing my skills.
My loving family is in France and I still have closed friends there too. My husband is a loving man and has been considering for the last 5 years if we should go back there as it hurts me to live here in Australia where I often feel an outsider. I have fears related with going back though which stops me, more so financially as my husband does speak so little french and we are 45+, at least I am lucky he is ok to live there.
If you know of any books or studies you have read about what could be the impact of immigration I would love to have access to those, I really would like to feel normal I suppose after trying so hard and not succeed.
Your help is much appreciated. Thanking you in advance.
