Returning to Beyond Blue

[MrGeorge]

hi all, just thought i'd post one of these up, last time i was on the forums was probably 2020-ish!

so glad these forums exist, they helped me a lot in the past and i hope they will help me again, as well i hope to help others in the process!

Recent Depression and Anxiety flare-ups have bought me back here seeking advice and kind words, my whole life i try to think of myself as a kind person and try to be a good person, but unfortunately its something i have to actively supress as the saying goes others mistake my kindness for weakness and  pretty much almost always try to take advantage, its just so unfortunate.

Combination of moving house and trying to find a new job has been a killer as well, however i guess most of my anxiety and depression comes from work related issues, mainly dealing with nasty people with big egos who are always looking for ways to cut you down or make you feel small, again its so disapointing as theres no need for it, people can be kind, but they just choose not to it seems

Anyway thats it from me for now, somebody please tell me i'm not alone here! 😅

looking forward to chatting with you all sometime 😊

-G

[MrGeorge]

Only 6 visits per year?!?! wow thats absolutely way less than what i remembered it, even 10 a year really isnt all that much 😱

by chance though i actually did find some old therapy recipts i had, turns out after the Medicare cash back i was still paying around $70 per session? (full price $150 or $170??)  i guess even at that cost I wouldn't want to be doing more than 10 sessions a year anyway haha

You do make an extremely good point there, and its something i think of almost every single day without fail what job/ career i could be doing to be feeling more happier and fulfilled, but for many years, study, trial and error, i just never really found the answer, my current job I'm a sort of "Machine Operator" of sorts, the role is both extremely common around Australia and in high demand too which is great, but as always its very hard finding a good workplace with good coworkers, good work, and good management, in 15+ years of working (still young i know) ive only come across one workplace that was truly great to work for, until management changed hands and they decided to work everyone to the bone instead of focusing on a good workplace 

having two part time jobs was something i considered for a while i was in the role, but i dont think it wouldve been possible without burning out, and then finding a second part time role with only a few hours (ideally 10-12 per week) to support and fit in alongside the hours of the main part time role (15-20 hours per week) proved to be near impossible, though some people apparently were are able to find / work 2 part time roles, but the hours were landing them 9 - 11 hours of work everyday, declining shifts on short notice was a big no-no so it was like mannnnn....

But anyway i think its important to say while i was mostly better, the job of course wasnt without its challenges, from being very aware of spending/ finances, to sometimes sheer boredom and frustration about lack or work, and other times the job was difficult and there were branches i actively avoided working at haha...so all in all, i really dont know what to make of it weather to return or not, heck i did consider it recently, as dec-feb is a busy time and they will probably have lots of available work, so very tempting lol

thank you again for your advice, really appreciate it 😊😊😊

[Croix]

Dear MrGeorge~

Well it looks like a position that pays well, is full time and bad for you mental health , or one that is part time, excellent for your health but does not pay enough.but does not pay enough.

I guess it has to be a question of priorities and ingenuity. I am still recovering after many years from staying far too long in a job htat nearly destroyed me and I'd not like to see you make the same mistake. I beleive your health, mental and physical, has to be number one.

As one cannot close ones eyes to finances, after all one needs a minimum amount to pay the bills maybe you can alternate if two part time jobs is unworkable. You mentioned the 'machine operator' job was in demand, so maybe after certain amout of time you could leave it and look for something more comfortable with a view ot returning later.

I would think it would depend on how badly the 'machine operator' job affected you, and that is not always easy to judge for yourself. As a result an occasional visit to a GP or psychologist could be a very handy source of perspective.

No ideal answers but perhaps a workable compromise - what do you think?

Croix