hi and welcome to beyond blue.
it sounds like it is quite upsetting for you not to be part of or having some presence in the life of your (first) grandson. It is sad when relations breakdown and you are denied the opportunity of a relationship. And this would be one of those special times when he starts school.
I know four months sounds like a long time. There are a few things you could do in the meantime...
- you have already mentioned you are trying to distract yourself. Please continue this.
- there are threads on the forums for grounding and mindfulness you could always look at as well. Another thread would be "three things to be thankful for today". You will find these in the "staying well" section of the forum.
- are there any local support groups you could try out?
- if you do a google search for "beyond blue cannot see grandchild" you will find stories from other people in a similar position to you and (perhaps) what they did in this situation.
Finally are there friends you can talk about this situation with? I only mention this is that while you can talk with a counsellor and talk there and get ideas there, there is still that time between sessions. Being able to talk with someone or others can be helpful. You could also post here. While we users are not professionally trained, we can listen and reply to your posts without judgement. And you don't have to keep those thoughts penned up inside.
Listening to you, Tim
