People ask me if I need help, idk what to say...

[Guest_9351]

I have anxiety and depression for at least 5 years now. I used to be in denial but now... I don't care... It is so hard to get help, I feel worthless so I don't know weather I should waste ppl's time. So I say 'I'm fine' how do I ask, even the simplest questions are hard to ask. I forced my self to get help by joint this site because I've had dark thoughts of taking the say way out all day... I'm so sick of asking my friends and making them sad by telling the truth...

[geoff]

Good Morning Guest_9351, can I offer a warm welcome to the site.

You are by no means wasting anybody's time and I often say that if someone says 'they're fine' is definitely an indication that there is something wrong with them, and now you have said it, so I'm sorry you feel trapped in this most insidious illness.

Sometimes people who we call 'friends' aren't too interested in helping us after we've told them of our depression, so they back of, or go away, that's what disappoints us and perhaps makes us feel worse.

Before I post this I need to ask if you are seeing a doctor, however, I'll be online until 6.20 am this morning so hope to hear back from you.

Geoff.

[Peppermintbach]

Hello,

I’m glad Geoff has kindly reached out to you. I feel 5 years is a very long time to struggle with both anxiety and depression. You sound so emotionally drained, down and overwhelmed...

Like Geoff, I also absolutely do not think you’re “worthless” or wasting anyone’s time as you put it. If anything, I think it’s admirable that you’re reaching out here as reaching out isn’t easy...

If you’re feeling up to it, maybe let us know how you’ve been since your first post. You’re welcome to post as often as you like. We would love to continue supporting you...

Kind and caring thoughts,

Pepper