Not sure how to feel

[Dontknowwhattofeel]

Hi. I'm not really sure where to start. I've never had proper counselling because I'm scared to share my issues so I thought I'd try here. I know despite non professional help I know I'm abnormal emotionally and somewhat physically as I see things I can't explain and hear voices I know shouldn't be there but are. I doubt myself a lot and feel like I can never think straight or sometimes if I feel much at all. It feels everyday I lose interest in myself, I barely eat, I struggle to sleep and feel half the time I don't know what I'm doing or why I'm doing it. Most days I consider temporary escapes through substance abuse or alcohol intake or too an extend self harm. I'm not sure if I want these things or if I enjoy the pain the bring and concluding that I deserve such self abusive attributes. Id say I feel lost but at the moment I'm not sure what I feel...

[therising]

I'm interested to know whether you're someone who wonders a lot and daydreams a fair bit, someone who at times is pretty tuned in to others and someone who gets the occasional 'chill' when something someone says feels like is simply 'rings true'. Anyhow...

It often breaks my heart when I hear how boys and men are told to not be so sensitive (aka 'toughen up'). Being sensitive is an incredibly natural (or should I say super natural) part of who we are. Being sensitive is what allows us to feel life in so many incredible ways. Venting (crying, screaming, sighing, talk therapy and so on) means that we are able to release the dis-ease in our body, so as to come to life more easily. Without the venting side of things, we hold on to much of what we need to be letting go of.

🙂

[mocha delight]

🍷 to you therising & I completely agree with you as I think a guy is more of a real man if they show some emotion instead of coming across as very tough/cold/heartless ect ect ect as for some examples I’d never want in a man.

[therising]

Hi Don't know what to feel

Thought it might make some difference to know that, like mocha delight, I've heard my name called before a couple of times, as has my husband and a couple of other people I know. In the last house I lived in some years ago, had a pretty overwhelming experience that left me questioning my sanity. Between my 1st child and 2nd, I'd experienced 2 miscarriages. When some of the signs of miscarriage were beginning to show in my last pregnancy, I recall lying down on the couch sobbing my eyes out, expecting the worst. That was when it happened: It was as though someone had knelt down beside me and said as clear as day 'Everything will be okay, it's a boy'. Needless to say, this shocked the heck out of me, as I looked to find no one there. Some months later, I gave birth to my son.

We can definitely be interesting creatures at times, filled with a lot of questioning or wondering. Finding the right answers can be a huge challenge.

[hob2]

[All of heard growing up is "Be a man"

i dont think there is such a thing; just ppl that dont know howto help, use it

not taking away yur substance uses, U think it might hinder U

from finding out what "hurts" deep down ?