Not in Kansas City anymore ToeToe.

[V17]

Hello to you all.
I'm not feeling my display name at the mo, so please call me V.

I had a freak out session in here on a thread I started that is waiting for the green light to be given, so I won't double up just in case.
But having said that I am up and down and side to side, back to front and inside and out. I was taken completely by surprise with this onslaught of depression that is currently plaguing me; I'm kinda like a roo in the headlights. Like, whiskey tango foxtrot?! O.O I'm trying to get my head around what has happened. I am scared and unsure of where I am so I have been replying to posts in the hopes that 1. I become distracted from myself 2. I find some semblance of solace and 3. ..? to be continued I guess. Unsure.

But one thing I really want you to know is the value in the posts I read and/or respond to. Please keep posting, even if you may feel it is irrelevant, to someone like me - it just may save a life. So thank you. Really, thank you for allowing me to see I am not alone in this.

V.

[SourceShield]

...and THANK YOU TOO, V!

MuchLove

Kaitoa Wolfe

[white knight]

Hi V, welcome here

Studies suggested a couple of years ago to allow your depressive cycle to run its course rather than fighting it or expecting it to dissolve in a certain time frame. Acceptance is hard to do but better to live through.

Distraction is an excellent way to overcome some symptoms. Hobbies like jigsaws, modelling, painting, and so on is recommended. Anything that allows your mind to be distracted.

Google- Topic: depression, a ship on the high seas- beyondblue

Google- Maharaji sunset

Google Maharaji the perfect instrument

Tony WK

[SubduedBlues]

Judahlion

You sound a lot like me when I first came here; have a look for the thread: "Can one have too much BeyondBlue?"

In a nutshell, I think by articulating out our issues, we understand them better ourselves, and then we are able to set about fixing them. And replying on threads, and helping others, helps us feel better about ourselves, which in turn, helps us heal.

SB

[V17]

Bless you Kaitoa; Thank you. V.

[V17]

Cheers Tony for the welcome and for taking the time to respond to my post, I appreciate it.

It often astounds me how a well thought out metaphor can succinctly bring a point home - yours was no different; as was Marharji's Perfect Instrument. Thank you for sharing that with me.
So, I sat for a while after pondering my 'rudder' and likened myself to the cello. (Lost in Hilderness: Mount A Casting - if you ever want to listen to something hauntingly beautiful.) I have an appointment tomorrow with the psych so I have made a note to mention medication.

I reflected on what you wrote about acceptance. Makes sense. I value your straight down the line, tell-it-how-it-is approach, Tony; I can relate to and respect that. I need it, too. Thank you.

V.

[V17]

Good morning Subdued,

I read the thread, "Can one have too much BeyondBlue?", before I went to sleep. You are right, you know; I can see where you are coming from regarding our similarities. I can't help but emit a dark chuckle in sympathy though SB, poor thing, if your thoughts are as ... well, here we are in this place, right? Well met.

Thanks for pointing the thread out to me. In the past, I have often noticed things; be them similarities, revelations and insights, and not shared them with people. I was, (and hate to admit it but, yeah; still am) caught up in apparent judgement - me thinking 'they' were judging me; God forbid if I was to judge, right? Yeah right. Silly me. I will change that. No, I AM changing that. The complete lack of judgement I am finding in here is like Bambi's first steps in trepidation in the snow. It is alien to me and I think to myself, is this possible? Evidently it is. You and so many others are testimony to this. Thank you for taking the time to show me stuff about myself, I really appreciate it SB.

Cya round in here, somewhere.
Deepest respect,
V.