hi everyone,
my reason for registering here is to try and ease the load on people i care about. as my title suggests it's only my family and friends that keep my head above water.
before you ask, i have no interest in finding a counsellor. had a few, didn't work out, i have no intention of paying a new person to be unavailable once medicare limits are met.
You may have got the impression i am an angry person. you're not wrong. sometimes i think I'll exhaust myself being angry at the past. another reason i avoid counsellors.
Basically i believe that i was born to be ugly. this is part of my karmic cycle and there's a place for ugly people in this world and if i can focus on doing good things it doesn't matter what my reflection looks like.
My mother was an alcoholic, as was my sister. my dad was so scared of losing any of his relationships that he never pulled anyone up on anything. my step mother was extremely emotionally abusive.
Ive been diagnosed with PND. i read articles, I'm on mothers forums. i have good friends.
I'm going to watch a movie now with my husband. this is wasting happy time.
