Newbie to BB but longtime rider of the roller coaster.

[Mumish]

Hi everyone,

My life has been full of twists, turns, happiness but most of all lots of pain and confusion. Never really understanding why I find myself too scared to leave my home for what seem untouchable reasons or trying to sleep the days away so I don't have to feel them. I see what should be a life to be enjoyed pass me by. I watch others appearing to live happy fulfilling lives with strength and courage and wonder why I am like I am and can't do the same.

I have a complex story which may come out here, I'm not sure yet, but my life stories continue to go around and around in my mind while I struggle to make some kind of logical sense of it all and search for how I can get off this roller coaster and leave it all behind and just be normal.

More recently I came across articles of children of narcissistic parents and felt it was a mirror image of me. The damage its done to my life pains me, but now I feel I understand myself better and may have found my direction to heal. I guess the positive is I'm having another try at opening a door by being here to help myself. The few threads I've read so far in that section has helped and makes me realize just how many people suffer and why, so maybe my story and involvement can help me and others too

[geoff]

dear Mumish, I am pleased that all the comments from the above people, who care so much for people has made you feel welcome to the site, so that's a great beginning for you to hopefully feel comfortable.
The story which is complex as you say, is open for any discussion when you believe it's time to talk about it, and we are more than happy to listen and try and help you through it.
Can I say is it when you can get off the roller-coaster or when you can stop it, both have slightly different meanings. Geoff. x

[Mumish]

Thank you Geoff ... good point regarding the roller coaster.

[White_Rose]

Hi

I am sure your post came through. Sometimes there is a long delay for various reasons. It may be the moderators have a sudden onslaught of posts to read and need time to get through them all.

Have you thought of volunteer work? This is a good option while you are looking for paid employment. Think about the skills you have and what interests you. Then look for an organisation that needs your abilities and where you think you will be happy. e.g. you like talking to people and offering support and comfort. The cancer council are always looking for volunteers in this area. have a look at what is on offer.

I believe CentreLink has a process where voluntary work is accepted under their guidelines for looking for work and receiving a pension. Perhaps you could talk to them about this while you are job hunting.

I understand your reluctance to try another psychologist or psychiatrist. It is such a personal relationship so you need to feel comfortable. Have you tried Relationships Australia or Anglicare? Both have a good reputation for helping people and they charge nothing or a small amount. Always a good thing. To me they are more down to earth than psychs in private practice, possibly because their clients are not the source of their income.

I hope you will keep in touch.

Mary