Newbie - Feel nothing

[Hawks18]

Hi,


I’m looking for advice, sorry if I waffle, this is the only way I can get my thoughts in one spot, took me a while to put it all down.


I’m 37 years old.


I don’t smoke or take any other drugs.
Addictive personality.


Been on medication for around 4 years. Originally for anxiety, I had suffered from the odd panic attack.


Previous years of alcohol issues now I drink maybe once a month. I haven’t regularly drank since about Mid 2017.


I have had the following issues for at least a year or so that I can remember. But have become far more evident since I cut alcohol around Mid 2017.


I feel nothing not happy nor sad
I don’t enjoy really anything.
I know I should be enjoying certain things but I don’t.
I buy things that I should be enjoying but rarely do.


I am tired the majority of the time. No motivation.
I sleep ok but for too long most nights normally around 10 hours. I try and cut back on sleep to have a healthy 7-8 hours but I can’t stick to it.


Effecting work as a on the road sales rep.
I know what I need to do at work but I can’t motivate myself to do it.
On the occasion I can get myself moving I can get some work done.
I can plan what I would like to do but struggle badly to do it.


I was a social person but I’m no longer.
I just want to be at home watch television.


I don’t feel comfortable talking to people other than family and work colleagues, I get anxious and try to make it as short as possible.
I can be really outgoing with family and work colleagues and come across as confident. I can be annoying.
But also have times were I’m really quiet and don’t talk. My partner jokes I’m bi polar at times.


I get daily times of anxiousness, I find it difficulty to relax. Restless.
I try the breathing exercises I have learnt but can’t seem to concentrate on them for long enough to benefit.


I think I now suffer from hypnotic jerks ( google diagnosed ) I have uncontrollable arm and head movements while falling asleep. Sometimes during the day if sleepy.


I get times of just been foggy and struggle to think, and fumble with my words.


I eat healthy most of the time but gouge on takeaway foods a couple of times a week as I think it will make me feel good eating it.

To finish I’m not sure what is wrong with me, maybe I should be on different medication or have something in conjunction with it.
 

[Bethie]

Hi and welcome

Im 17 years clean and sober so might be able to give you a few easy tips. Alcohol has alot of sugar in it and when we give up our body still needs sugar it had. Try eating every 3 hours and keep some lollies with you to have. The lethargic feeling is normal and eating small regular meals will help with that and focus.

I remember in my first year of sobriety i was rarely without either a can of coke or cup of coffee and my work loved the added benefit of a lolly jar on my desk which i shared with everyone.

The problems with sleep may easy after talking to your GP. I know for me i now take dual anti anxiety/anti depressant meds.

So far you are doing great. You have written down your thoughts and problem and sought help. That is a really big deal. Something to be proud of.

Please keep posting good or bad and let us know how you are