Dear Jualem~
Most people find coming here is entering a very different sort of place. Anonymity is highly prized, so you can talk about any subject you like and it does not get back to family, friends, employers or anyone else. There are an awful lot of people here, and their range of experiences is correspondingly broad, so whatever is on your mind will not doubt have been faced before. Another very good thing is that the burden is shared. no one person here has to take on all the troubles of another, here are many to share the load.
So having said all that welcome Jualem.
Not wanting to burden your husband might be wise, I don't know your circumstances. I do know sometimes one can underestimate the strength and wisdom of others in our lives. I've PTSD, anxiety and bouts of depression, and came to realize my partner was a real support, and made a huge difference.
You are right to see the loss of a confidant as important. Being able to talk frankly, receive aother's perspective, and even just plain vent at times, all these are necessary. We do not always cope well alone.
So please talk here with confidence, you will be met with care and understanding
Croix
