New here too

[Ma77DMT]

Hi. Don't really know why I am here but I am so I thought I'd introduce myself. Have had severe depression on and off for over 20 years but the last few years I havedeen pretty stable. Recently life has crashed. I am empty, lifeless and alone. I feel like a failure at everything I have ever done and can't see past the 'nobody would even notice if you died' thoughts. I live in a small country town with my hubby and children but apart from them I have nobody. Family all 5 hours away and don't understand anyway. Hi

[BballJ]

Hi Ma77DMT,

Firstly, welcome to the forums. You are definitely not alone on these forums and well done for joining and telling a bit of your story. It is never easy to do this and the fact you have, you should be proud of yourself.

Did you want to go into more detail about what has been happening in your life more recently just to try and get it out and we can try and offer advice. I am a fellow mental health suffer mainly with depression and anxiety.

The thoughts of no one noticing you are quite concerning however, do you currently speak to a psychologist or have you about how you are feeling?

Please remember you can call the Beyond Blue helpline on 1300 22 4636 24/7 to discuss how you are feeling.

Please, post back as much as you like, we are always happy to talk.

My best for you,

Jay