So......new to the forum and needing to share. Although I think it would take almost writing a novel to share everything I’m feeling right now.
my life feels like a mess. I’ve suffered from depression most of my life and just when I think it’s under control. Bam....it blows up again, always over the little things. I'm struggling at work to keep my emotions in check after what I logically know is a not a major issue, but is still unresolved with HR and probably won’t get sorted at all cause it’s so low on their priority list and I feel like my family wouldn’t even miss me if I were gone. In fact my husband’s telling me “he can’t do this anymore” and suggested we have time apart. What am I supposed to do with that?
I’ve never been a person who makes friends easy and when I have, they’ve always betrayed me on some level or another. So for me to trust someone with my issues is just never going to happen. I’ve been hurt way too many times. I know that’s sad, but it’s the truth. And because of that it’s makes having depression even harder. I feel stuck and out of control all at the same time.
Ive tried meds and psychs and other stuff, but it’s not for me. I’ve always leaned on my amazing husband who I feel like I’m even pushing him away now he’s said he wants time........something has got to give. I want to know how do I change this around. I want to be better. I want to be happy.
