Keeping head above water only to be pushed back under.

Maxim · ‎12-07-2018

Hi everyone,

This feels weird and im not really sure where to start.

Today is Thursday and i haven't been to work yet this week because i haven't been able to get out of bed. I feel so guilty which makes me want to hide away even more. I almost feel like im purposefully sabotaging my job because i know whats happening to me.

Until recently i had been doing well... I've been suffering with depression and anxiety since i was a teenager and it had always been this part of me i never shared but kind of like a burdon i knew i had to carry.

Until this time last year when i hit rock bottom and finally took myself to the GP and pysch. Ive been on meds since and learnt some amazing coping techniques. I also have had all sorts of personal issues during that time and still seemed to keep my head above water.

And now it just comes flooding back... i thought i was getting better... i thought i would soon be able to get off the meds...

Is it always going to be like this?

smallwolf · ‎12-07-2018

Maxim,

Hi. Welcome to beyond blue.

It sounds like you might have a relapse? (I had a relapse just last April, and that was when I was put onto ADs and a psychiatrist was added to my support team.)

Are you still in contact with your GP and psychologist? If so, re you able to contact one of the other and have a chat with them?

Are you still using the coping techniques you were taught?
Are there people in your life who you are able to talk to about this? Family? Friends?

In relation to your question as to whether it will always be like this... that we do not know. I know some people who were on ADs and got back to normal in short time, and others who have been on them for 20years. Some appear to get better, and others do not.

Remind yourself that this is temporary, and that you’ve overcome depression once so you can do it again.

Also note there are other thread on the forum that might help in relation to managing your anxiety. Please come back and let us know you are getting on? I look forward to your response.

Tim