I am an angry hedgehog

[humfrey]

This is my first post on these forums.

I have depression, anxiety, cptsd, and a lot of anger.

I don't have a good history with online communities, I often get angry and get into arguments. I will try to do better this time.

Why do I call myself a hedgehog? because when I'm hurt I put the spikes out so no-one can get close, and I hide away for days.

[geoff]

dear Humfrey, hi and thanks for joining the BB site.

Beyond Blue was set up to discuss this very difficult topic for people just like you who are suffering from this debilitating illness, where a lot of discussions take place to try and help those who have been struck down by depression.

It's a friendly site where no angry arguments are posted, however from what you have said is that you have been and still trying to cope with many issues, which will certainly stop you from trying to get on with life, so I hope that you can get back to us and start the thread. Geoff.

[White_Rose]

Dear Humfrey

Well, hedgehog or not, welcome to Beyond Blue. Many of us are angry for one reason or another. Writing here helps us to vent our feelings in safety and anonymity. So long as you do not make personal attacks all will be well. I feel pretty angry at the moment for several reasons, one being angry with myself for being angry. I hope that makes sense.

Disagreeing with others is OK. That's why we talk to each other. It's how we disagree that matters.

Anyway, enough of the sermon. Spikes in or out is not important. What is important is that you are able to talk to us about how you feel and we help you to find help.

Love to hear from you again.

Mary

[Guest_1055]

Dear Humfrey,

I am hoping it is OK, I was reading through the topic headings of the threads here. And I saw yours. Thank you so so much, and please excuse me, but I actually giggled,  at your heading" I am an angry hedgehog" and it felt good. I mean no disrespect, only to let you know that you helped me to smile. Thank you

[Jay-Kay]

what Shelley Anne said above! you have a great sense of humour, and that can help us handle a lot of our more "difficult" emotions... I don't know if you are still here, on this forum, as you seem to have only done two posts, and this was a while ago: but I just thought I'd say, I earlier posted I'm a gestalt...." and I found your post by searching for CPTSD (which is my problem) and - well, I will look out for you and any others with my issues....

Humfrey - you may currently be in hedgehog hibernation, but if/when you come out - I hope you find this forum helpful

[Asatru]

Hello Humfrey. Hedgehogs may be spiky but they're adorable. Um, don't know if that's appropriate when applied to humans, but anyway, hello, I hope you get on well here. I'm new too.

[Starwolf]

Hi humfrey,

Anger also has its positive side. It can be a great motivator to bring about change.

I hear you as I have had to deal with a lot of anger in my own life. There were times when I could easily have turned homicidal. No kidding. There's a lot to rage about in this world. There's also beauty, compassion, creative expression etc....although anger often blinds us to these.

Nothing wrong with venting out frustration, denouncing harmful deeds. Learning to let off steam in a non destructive way is a challenge, not an impossibility. Anger can become a powerful ally if canalized (not controlled) in the chosen channel. Nothing wrong with putting up the spikes under threat....as long as they can be brought down when danger has passed. Armors do have their use but as daily dress style, they tend to become cumbersome and uncomfortable.

This site allows to let down a favorite guard while still feeling safe. The remote control is in your hands.

 I wish you all the best.