Hi :)

[Ronin2015]

Hi guys 🙂

I'm new here, so not really sure what to write lol

i am 32, male and from Queensland

last December for a reason I'm still a little bit unsure about, I had a bad anxiety attack and I was quite depressed for the months before.

I am looking forward to speaking with many of you and can hopefully learn to understand it a little bit better.

[CMF]

Hi Ronin and welcome,

You have come to the right place and a very safe and secure place.

Anxiety attacks are awful, sorry to hear you went through that. What something going on around that time that may have triggered it? You mentioned you were depressed before hand. Did you go to your gp at all and how do you feel these days?

cmf

[blondguy]

Hi Ronin

Welcome to the forums and good on you for having the strength to post too!

No worries at all Ronin. I started getting anxiety attacks when I was 23 and they scared the hell out of me

I understand where you are coming from and its not a nice place whether anxiety or depression. I hear you!

The forums are a Judgemental Free Zone....No one will judge you here Ronin

There are also thousands of people that also have varying levels of anxiety and depression here as well so you will never be on you your own here 🙂

This is your thread and there are many gentle people that can be here for you....no worries at all

My name is Paul and good to meet you Ronin

There can be heaps of reasons for having an anxiety attack(s).....Were you under a a lot of stress at the time or even a few years before your anxiety attack?

Please excuse the question....just trying to help you more effectively 🙂

Great to have you here as part of the forum family Ronin

my kind thoughts for you

Paul

[Ronin2015]

Thank you for a warm welcome Cmf and Paul

apologies if my post is a bit long lol

when I was about 20 I suffered from what I believe now to be panic/anxiety attack, which basically was from drinking among other things. Those eventually subsided. A few years later I quit drinking when my first child was born. So up until last December I though I was pretty much ok

about two years ago my partner wanted another child, which I didn't.

there was a lot of fighting and eventually I gave up and we had another, a beautiful little boy 🙂

I was also working afternoon shift, then when I got home I was studying till all hours of the morning.

then up to get my daughter ready for school, do house work then work and repeat.

i started getting angry, wanted more alone time, in the end they became normal feelings for me.

fast forward again.

i was finding it hard to delegate my energy between both kids at one time, often getting depressed and moody. Can Manage one at a time lol.

came home from a birthday party one night and got hit with some very dark thoughts out of nowhere, everything about the day had been good.

the thoughts only got stronger to the point it scared me, so I told my partner what was going through my head and explained I was worried, to which she comforted me as best she could.

called beyondblue the next day and then the doctors following that.

my doctor didn't say why, but told me I have "gad and mild depression", proscribing me low dose medication.

which honestly for the first few weeks there were side effects but they seemed to have subsided shortly there after.

so it hasn't been too bad since December but this past week, I've started feeling a bit down, almost like the medication isn't working, not reallly sure what's going on. Maybe it's just a little hiccup.

[Doolhof]

Hi Ronin,

I too welcome you to the community here. Like already mentioned, this is a great place to share how you are feeling. There is also a lot of information to be found on this site.

It may help you to read the information on Anxiety in The Facts section of this site.

When you feel comfortable, you might like to share more of how the anxiety made you feel. People suffer from anxiety in many different ways. It might help if a few people share how "Anxiety" feels for them, so then you will understand what you experienced is not so unusual or as frightening as it seems.

Anxiety for me is feeling nervous, sweating, fidgeting, feeling like I am going to faint, like I need to run away while my heart is beating a million miles an hour and I can't breathe.

Then I realise there is no lion in the crowd about to eat me. Or no one going to attack me in the shops. It is my mind playing tricks on me. Turning a small thought into something outrageous. For me it helps to find a quieter place to stand or sit for a while. To take deep breathes.

While out shopping one day, I noticed a harassed looking lady dash into a shoe shop where I was a customer. The staff asked if they could help her. She said she just needed to sit a while as she was about to have a panic attack. She knew she would find somewhere to sit in a shoe shop. Staff gave her a drink of water, she was able to collect her thoughts and I saw her later on in a different shop.

Hope this helps!

Cheers from Mrs. D or Dools

[Ronin2015]

Hi and thank you mrs d 🙂

i did write another post just before, but hasn't showed up yet lol.

just a little bit of my background with it :).

I look forward to chatting more with everyone 🙂

[geoff]

hi Ronin, welcome to the site, and once you start posting any comment it then develops from there on, which is terrific, because it may start to unveil some other secrets which you were unaware of, that's what happens if somebody has depression, and remember that anxiety and depression both go hand in hand together. Geoff.

[Doolhof]

Hi Ronin,

Sometimes the posts are a little delayed, depends how long it takes the moderators to check things and maybe how busy the forum is as well.

Have you been back to your Dr for a chat? You mentioned GAD. Is that something to do with the seasons? For example some people are worse off with their depression in the winter when they do not have enough day light. If that is the case, trying to get a bit of sun each day if possible may be important. Did your Dr. explain this to you?

Is it possible for you to see a counsellor? Hopefully sharing how you are feeling here will help also. I know that just by writing how I am feeling helps me, either on this forum or on paper.

Do you have hobbies and interests you enjoy? Can you do more of those things to help improve your mood? Are there things you enjoy doing with your children that brightens your day?

It may help to look back on your day each night and think of three things that you are thankful for, if that is too hard, than think of just one.

You may find just a half hour to yourself each day is very beneficial also. Time for you to just rest your mind, do some thing enjoyable, go for a walk or whatever to help ease the depressive feelings.

Wishing you all the best with this.

Cheers from Mrs. D.